by Jenbob
tzzen@hotmail.com
(c) February 1997 (Revised Fall 1997)
CHAPTER 5
The three of them quickly fell into a comfortable routine. Early in the morning, Xena would leave on Argo to scout for a couple of hours, before returning to walk with Gabrielle and Cor. While they walked, Gabrielle found Cor was an extremely receptive audience for her tales and, once they had stopped for the day, he proved to be an able instructor for her staff lessons. His skills didnt stop there. While Xena hunted, he would do all the evening scouting, always bringing back plenty of wood for the fire. He even began to take over the cooking as well. In fact, he quickly started taking care of the majority of Gabrielles "duties," leaving her with little to do and feeling a bit useless. She knew that it was silly to feel that way, and logically she realized that he was just trying to fit in. At the same time, however, it left her more than a little unsettled when she saw how easy it would be for someone to take her place.
For several days, things were uneventful, but it wasnt long before the peace was rudely shattered. Late one morning, they rounded a bend and stumbled across a bloody scene: seven men ransacking a wagon, while two bodies could be seen lying on the ground. Without a moments hesitation, Xena drew her sword and charged into battle, with Cor and Gabrielle close on her heels. The bandits turned in surprise when they heard Xenas war cry, and paused momentarily in confusion. The delay cost two of them dearly, as Xena was on them instantly and had knocked them both unconscious before they knew what was happening. Grinning widely, she turned to face her next opponent, who had finally managed to draw his weapon. Calmly twirling her sword in circles, she stalked him. Concerned about the possibility that one or both of the victims might still be alive, Xena was determined not to drag the fight out any longer than she had to. Easily dodging her attackers clumsy thrust, she kicked the sword out of his hand before punching him hard across the face with the hilt of her own sword. As she half turned, she saw one of the bandits rushing her from behind. Waiting until the last second, she dropped down low to the ground, avoiding his attack. As he started to trip over her, she punched him hard in the midsection with her right hand, while she reached out to grab his sword arm with her left. Twisting his wrist as hard as she could, she heard him scream out in pain, before he dropped his sword and clutched his arm to his chest. The last thing he saw before losing consciousness, was Xenas fist coming directly towards his face.
Gabrielle had followed Xena in, determined to at least try to carry her weight and do her part. She saw Xena engage the main group of men, while Cor headed towards two others who were standing off to one side. Seeing one other man unaccounted for, she headed towards the opposite side of the wagon where he was standing. He came forward to meet her, waving his sword towards her as he laughed at the young woman who would dare to threaten him with a stick. Gabrielle could see that he wasnt particularly skilled, but she watched him carefully while she looked for an opening. Striking forward, she hit him with several rapid blows, nearly disarming him in the process. Enraged, he swung his sword at her viciously, but she easily ducked forward under his attack to come up behind him. Unfortunately, as she began to spin around to hit him again, she tripped over a large rock that was lying on the ground. She fell down heavily, still holding up her staff. As she started to scramble to her feet, the bandit suddenly froze, gasping in pain. As he dropped to the ground, she saw Xena standing behind him grinning. "You okay?" the warrior asked, a slight note of concern in her voice.
Gabrielle felt her cheeks burn with embarrassment. She had had to fight only one man and she still had ended up needing Xenas help. "Im fine," she mumbled, as she looked around to see what had happened to Cor. She finally saw him leaning over the body of one of the men that the raiders had attacked.
Xena nodded before going to check the other body. It belonged to a young man and it was quickly apparent that he had already passed over to the other side. Knowing that there was nothing she could do for him, Xena went to see if she could help Cor with the other man.
"He has a good chance of making it," Cor told her as she drew near. "Get my pack for me, I want to sew up this wound in his side before I do anything else." Xena quickly retrieved Cors backpack and walked back over to join him. She pulled out the needle and thread that he needed and handed it to him. Since Cor had the situation under control, she looked around to make certain that there werent any other survivors. At that moment, she realized that Gabrielle had yet to move from where she had last seen her.
"Gabrielle?" she called loudly, as she moved towards where her friend was still sitting. As she approached, she noticed that the bard was very, very still and was staring at something out of Xenas field of vision. "Gabrielle?" she called again, this time more softly. When she still got no reaction out of her friend, she moved forward to see what Gabrielle was looking at. When she saw what had caught the bards attention, Xena gasped involuntarily. Lying behind the wagon was the body of a child and, even from this distance, Xena could instantly tell that there was no point in checking to see if he or she was still alive. Unlike the other two bodies, which had been attacked but otherwise left alone, this one had been viciously hacked at with a sword until it was barely recognizable as human. There was blood and gore everywhere and, even as accustomed to the sights of death and destruction as Xena was, she found the vision extremely unnerving. For someone like Gabrielle, she could only imagine what a horrific sight it must be.
Xena shook herself from her momentary shock and moved to place herself between Gabrielle and the corpse, blocking the bards view with her own body. Reaching out to grab her arms, Xena could feel the young woman shaking. To her growing dismay, Gabrielle didnt even seem aware of her touch, and continued to stare straight ahead as if the warrior wasnt even there.
"Gabrielle...Gabrielle look at me," Xena ordered gently. Getting no response, she tried again. "Come on Gabrielle, look at me." Growing more worried, she placed a hand under her friends chin and lifted the bards head to meet her gaze. Blank, unseeing eyes stared back at her, and she felt a chill run down her spine. "Gabrielle, its me, Xena. Gabrielle focus on me, on my voice. Its going to be okay, but I need you to focus on me right now, okay?"
The warrior pleaded softly with her friend for several more minutes, before she finally began to get a response. Slowly, Gabrielle began to return to normal and her shaking subsided. "Xena?" she finally whispered as she began to cry.
Sighing with relief, Xena took her in her arms and held her, rocking her gently and stroking her hair. After several long moments, she eased away to look down at her friend once again. "Come on. Lets get you out of here," she said softly, as she wiped the tears from the bards face.
Gabrielle nodded silently, before allowing Xena to help her rise. Pain shot through her left ankle as she stood up, and she fell heavily against Xena. "My ankle," she managed to gasp through clenched teeth.
Without another word, Xena swept her up into her arms and carried her over to where Argo was standing. Carefully setting Gabrielle down with her back to a tree, Xena leaned over her friend to remove her boot so that she could examine her ankle. "Gabrielle, I need to know what hurts and what doesnt." The bard gritted her teeth and nodded. Carefully, Xena began to rotate her friends ankle, watching the young womans face intently as she did so. Seeing her friend struggling to hold in the pain, Xena smiled at her comfortingly. "Gabrielle, if you want to yell, then yell. Theres no one around to hear you. Make all the noise you want."
Xena considered their options briefly, before coming to a decision. Standing up, she moved to get several long strips of cloth from one of Argos saddlebags and then knelt in front of the bard again. "Ill bind your ankle for now to help keep it immobile. Theres a river a couple of miles from here. Well head that way so that you can soak it in cold water."
"Is it bad?" Gabrielle asked worriedly, as she watched Xena expertly wrap her ankle.
"Not too bad, although therell be no dancing for you for awhile," Xena reassured her with a grin. "Just stay off of it as much as possible and, in a day or two, youll be as good as new." She sat back to look up at Gabrielle as she finished binding the bards ankle.
"Promise?" Gabrielle asked, giving Xena a weak smile.
Xena reached out and took Gabrielles hand in her own. "I promise," she said softly, before giving the young womans hand a comforting squeeze.
"Thanks," Gabrielle said quietly. Suddenly, she found herself caught by Xenas eyes. She felt herself being drawn in, drowning in that sea of blue, unable to pull her gaze away. Time seemed to stand still, and all she was aware of was this gentle woman kneeling in front of her.
The sound of horses and peoples voices broke them both out of the spell. Looking up, Xena saw a couple dozen people making their way quickly down the road towards them. About a third of them were on horseback and appeared to be wearing some armor as well. Xena moved to stand protectively in front of Gabrielle, but she kept her sword in her sheath while she carefully watched the crowd approach. The group slowed as they drew closer and caught sight of Xena, who held up her hands to show that she was unarmed. Anxious to avoid any confusion, she called out to the townspeople, "My friends and I fought the bandits that attacked this wagon. One of the victims still lives and needs medical attention." She pointed towards where Cor was now standing.
One of the men on horseback, who was apparently the leader, ordered several of the others to bind the unconscious bandits, who were scattered around the area. He then directed most of the rest of his people to go back home. Swinging off his horse, he approached Xena, who moved forward to speak with him. "Im sorry, but we were too late to save the other two...."
"Two?" he asked, looking around for the other body.
Xena nodded. "There is one other, a child, over behind the wagon. I need to warn you, though, its a pretty gruesome sight. I dont know which one of these men did it, but I suspect it was him," she said, indicating the man Gabrielle had been fighting. "He was the one nearest the body when we arrived."
The man nodded. "We thank you for your help. I am Gamacles, leader of the local militia."
"Xena," she said simply, taking the hand he offered.
He looked at her appraisingly. "Xena. We have heard of you, both the bad and the good. You and your friends are welcome in our village. Its just over the next few hills."
"Thank you, but no. I think it would be best if we moved on." Xena had no intention of remaining around here any longer than they needed to. The sooner they got away from here, the sooner Gabrielle could put all this behind her. "Cor?" she called out, as she turned to find him.
Cor looked up from his patient, who appeared to have regained consciousness. "Yeah?"
"Do you need to stay with that man longer or can you tell these people what needs to be done?"
Cor spoke briefly to the three people standing near him. "Hell be fine. They have a skilled healer in their village and hell be okay to travel the short distance to the town."
"Good, then lets get going." Before coming over to her, she watched as Cor said something to the injured man and then smiled at him and clasped his shoulder. "Good-bye Gamacles, and good luck," she said, before leading Argo over to Gabrielle. She waited until Cor reached them, before swinging onto the mares back. Seeing the confused expression on Cors face as he looked at the bard, Xena answered his unspoken question. "Gabrielle twisted her ankle and needs to stay off it for awhile. Help her up here so that she can ride."
Understanding and compassion crossed Cors features when he heard Xenas words. "Sorry Gabrielle. Are you okay?" he asked, while he knelt down and lifted her onto Argo to place her in front of Xena.
Gabrielle smiled at him. "Well, I was until you put me up here but I guess that cant be helped."
Cor smiled back. "Orders are orders. Let me grab your staff and my pack and well be off."
Xena shifted behind Gabrielle as she got comfortable, then wrapped an arm around her friends waist, pulling the bard slightly closer to her in the process. "Well take it slow. I dont want to jostle that ankle any more than we have to. Let me know if it gets to be too much, though, okay?" she murmured into Gabrielles ear.
Gabrielle felt a jolt of electricity course through her body when Xenas arm slipped around her waist. It was followed by a surge of heat when she felt the warriors warm breath against her cheek. Clearing her throat, she managed to respond, "Ill be fine Xena. Lets just get out of here."
Cor returned, dismantling Gabrielles staff as he did so. He stuck the weapon in one of the saddlebags and then looked up at the bard. "How bout something for the pain?" Seeing her nod, he reached into his pack and brought out a small pouch. Reaching inside, he drew out several small leaves. "Chew on these. It will help," he said as he handed them to her.
Gabrielle gratefully took the leaves and began to chew on them. Relieved that they were mild in taste, she settled back against Xena, feeling safe and secure in her tight embrace. As they slowly moved away from the battle scene, she heard Xena begin to hum softly and she smiled and closed her eyes, content to rely on Xena to take care of her.
They traveled for several miles before they reached the river. It had been further than Xena had thought but, considering that it put extra distance between them and the scene of their earlier battle, the warrior figured it was just as well. Cor helped Gabrielle down from Argo and then carried her to the river, where he carefully unwrapped and examined her ankle, before gently placing it in the cold water. "It doesnt look too bad at all," he assured her. "All we need to do is keep the swelling down and youll be fine before you know it. Hows the pain?"
"Not too bad," she replied. "Whatever it was that you gave me
helped."
"Good. I have plenty, so let me know if the pain starts to bother you." Briefly
glancing up at Xena as she approached, he grinned and turned back towards Gabrielle.
"Dont be a fool and put on a big brave front like some kind of warrior
princess. Hiding your pain is vastly overrated!"
Rolling her eyes at his pathetic attempt at humor, Xena knelt down next to Gabrielle. "I think well call it a day and camp here. Theres no reason to push it, unless you want to keep riding Argo?" she said, grinning at Gabrielle.
The bard pretended to consider the question. "No, as much as I enjoy riding Argo, youre probably right," she agreed with mock reluctance. "Staying here is fine."
"Good, Ill get Argo settled then," Xena said, as she rose to her feet. Glancing meaningfully at Cor, she turned to walk back to her horse.
Cor chuckled to himself. "Keep your ankle in the water Gabrielle. Im going to figure out with Xena what she wants to do about scouting the area and getting supper."
Cor crossed the clearing to stand behind Xena. Several seconds passed before she turned to look directly into his eyes. "So, how is she?" the warrior asked in clipped tones.
Startled a bit by the question, as well as the intensity of her gaze, Cor hesitated for a few seconds before answering, noticing that his pause caused her to grow even more agitated. "Shes fine Xena," he finally replied, his confusion showing in his voice. "Surely you could tell that for yourself couldnt you? I thought I was a better teacher than that," he teased, trying to lighten the mood.
Xena nodded while she looked over at Gabrielle. "You are. I was just worried I was fooling myself. Its hard to be objective where Gabrielle is concerned," she admitted.
"Its going to be sore for a day or two but then shell be fine. Xena relax. Gabrielle twisted her ankle. Its not a big deal."
Looking at Cor in astonishment, Xena started to reply angrily, before realizing he didnt know what had happened back at the battle site. Taking a deep breath, she told him about what Gabrielle had seen and how she had reacted to it, while she continued to keep a close watch on the young woman.
Cors expression turned dark and angry before he regained control of his emotions. "Now I understand why you were so anxious to get out of there. I couldnt figure that one out at all." He looked over to where Gabrielle was sitting and felt his heart go out to her. "That cant have been easy for someone like her to see."
"No," Xena said tightly, "It wasnt, but still, Im a little surprised that she reacted as strongly as she did. Unfortunately, shes seen worse than that since hooking up with me, and its never seemed to affect her like this before."
Cor shrugged his broad shoulders. "Gabrielles had a lot to deal with over the past couple of months: your death, becoming the Amazon Queen, bringing you back to life, being hunted by a deranged god." Cor shook his head slowly. "Shes a strong young woman, but everyone has their breaking point. When someone is as inherently good and decent as Gabrielle is, they can only take so much before they become horrified at the pain that people inflict on others. I think seeing that body today was just the last straw."
Xena looked at her friend with a touch of surprise. "I didnt know you knew about my death and all the rest of that stuff."
Cor shrugged once again. "Id heard rumors that youd died, so I asked Gabrielle about it one morning when you were off scouting. Eventually, the whole story came out. It was pretty obvious that your death upset her deeply," he said quietly. "To be honest, Im not certain that shes accepted the fact that youre really back in her life."
"So if that was really a breaking point, what do I do for her now?" Xena asked worriedly.
"Just help her through this," Cor replied. "Let her lean on you for awhile. Shes going to be fine, she just needs a little time to work things out for herself first. Now," he said, changing the subject. "Why dont you tell me what you want to do about scouting and hunting? Or should I just take a guess?" he asked with a smile.
Xena chuckled softly. "You can do it. Ill stay here with Gabrielle."
"I thought that might be your plan." He cast another glance at Gabrielle, before turning to face Xena again. "All right, I assume you have something to give her for the pain?" Seeing Xena nod, he continued, "Fine. Ill scout around and bring some wood back before I go hunting. Ill see you in a bit," he said, before picking up his pack and heading into the surrounding trees.
Xena dealt with Argo as quickly as she could, deciding that she would leave the saddle on until Cor returned to say the area was secure. Grabbing the saddlebag that contained most of their food, she walked back over to Gabrielle and sat down next to her. "How are you doing?" she asked, troubled by the strained expression on her friends face.
"Fine. My ankles getting pretty numb though," she replied tonelessly.
"Well leave it in for a little longer and then Ill wrap it again." Seeing Gabrielles absent nod, she tried a different tactic. "Hungry?"
Gabrielle shrugged indifferently, before taking the bread Xena offered her. She ate slowly, not paying any real attention to what she was eating and barely focusing on what Xena was saying and doing. The warrior began to grow more and more concerned about her friend, but was unsure what to do for her. Deciding to focus on her ankle first, since she knew how to handle that problem, she carefully removed Gabrielles ankle from the water and dried it, before beginning to wrap it once again. She worked as quickly as she could, knowing that the feeling would soon return now that the ankle was out of the cold water. As she finished, she could feel Gabrielle staring at her. Looking up, she saw her friend watching her with pain-filled eyes. "Why?" the bard whispered, the anguish in her voice tearing at Xenas heart. "Why would anyone do that to a child?" she asked, as tears filled her eyes.
Xena was at her side instantly, taking Gabrielle into her arms. "I dont know Gabrielle. I dont know." Desperately wishing she could erase the image from her friends mind, she tightened her embrace and began to slowly rock the bard in her arms, humming gently to her. "Its going to be okay Gabrielle. I promise you," she whispered.
"Im just so tired," the bard mumbled against her friends chest, as silent tears trailed down her cheeks. "So tired of meaningless, senseless deaths...Everyday we see it over and over again, always present, always reminding me...Im so afraid...." Her voice trailed off as she tightened her grip on the warrior and began to cry in earnest.
"I wont let anything happen to you Gabrielle," Xena swore, as she did her best to pull her friend closer still.
"No," Gabrielle choked out. "No, Im not worried about me," she whimpered. Lifting her tear stained face to look up at her friend, she drew in a ragged breath. "Im worried about you. Im afraid that Ill have to watch them place your body on a funeral pyre again someday...Im scared of losing you again," she whispered.
"Youll never lose me, Gabrielle," Xena said fiercely, as she cradled the bard in her arms and rested her cheek against the top of the young womans head.
"But...."
"But nothing," the warrior said, silencing her friend. "I already came back from Hades realm once just to be with you. Do you think Id let anything keep me from your side after all the trouble we went through to get me back here again?" she said with a tender smile.
Gabrielle shook her head weakly and then allowed herself to relax against her friends body, letting the fear and worry slowly drain from her as she cried unashamedly. She sat in Xenas arms for what seemed like hours, before her sobs finally began to subside, realizing as they did that she actually felt better than she had before. Wiping a hand across her eyes, she took in a shuddering breath and then burrowed further into the warriors embrace. "Thanks," she murmured with a shaky laugh. "I guess I needed that."
"No problem," Xena said in a soft, low voice. "Feeling better?"
"Almost human," Gabrielle replied. "Give me a few moments and I think Ill even be able to move."
Xena shook her head and tightened her grip on the young woman. "Theres no hurry," she said. "Take all the time you need." Slowly, the warrior began to once again rock her friend gently in her arms, humming softly as she soothed the young womans tattered nerves. As she continued to hold her, she felt Gabrielles body begin to relax and eventually the bard began to drift off to sleep. Xena held her for several more precious minutes, before carefully gathering the young woman into her arms and moving to where she had tossed their bedrolls earlier. Laying Gabrielle down on top of the blankets, she knelt beside her for several long minutes, wanting to make certain that she had truly fallen asleep. Finally convinced, she stood and began to set up the rest of the camp, keeping one eye on her friend at all times.
Gabrielle was still sleeping when Cor returned to the camp. After confirming that the area was safe and dropping off the wood he had collected, he left again to find something to eat and to look for medicines to restock his supplies. Xena finished removing the rest of Argos tack and then gave the mare a good brushing, something she hadnt had a chance to do in quite awhile. She let Gabrielle sleep as long as possible but eventually decided to wake her up so that they could soak her ankle again.
"Gabrielle...Gabrielle wake up," she said, as she shook her friend gently. Slowly, the young woman opened her eyes and, much to Xenas relief, the bard smiled when she looked up at her. "How are you feeling?" she asked hesitantly, as she used her knuckles to lightly caress the young womans cheek.
"Better," Gabrielle replied honestly, her eyes briefly drifting shut as she savored the feeling of Xenas gentle touch. "How long have I been asleep?"
"A few hours. I want to get some cold water on that ankle and I figured youd rather wake up this way instead of from the shock of the cold water," Xena replied, as she smiled at her friend. "Let me carry you. It will be easier," she said, and then scooped Gabrielle into her arms and walked to the river. Standing at the edge, she slowly lowered the bard to the ground, before taking her ankle and removing the wrap. She placed Gabrielles ankle into the water gently, chuckling when she heard the young woman gasp from the cold. "Dont think about how cold it is," she instructed her friend. "Tell me a story instead."
Gabrielle looked at her in surprise. "You want to hear one of my stories?" she asked in disbelief.
Xena laughed. "Dont act so surprised. Im not that bad am I?"
Gabrielle smiled wryly. "Well maybe not, but I certainly get a lot more not now Gabrielle than tell me a story."
Xena looked away for a moment, unable to meet Gabrielles eyes. "Im sorry. I guess Im not always the best audience, am I?" she asked quietly.
Gabrielle looked at Xena in astonishment, surprised by the apology and the warriors sudden change of mood. "Youre a great audience Xena. How many other people would be willing to spend 24 hours a day with a bard?" she teased.
Xena turned back around to gaze directly into the young womans eyes. "Anyone who knew you would be willing, Gabrielle. Its not exactly a hardship to spend time with you," she said softly.
Touched by the sincerity in Xenas voice, Gabrielle swallowed hard, collecting her thoughts. Trying to smile casually, she attempted to lighten the mood. "A story it is then," she said, before launching into a folk tale she had picked up in Trezine.
Xena leaned back against a rock, as she listened to Gabrielles story, enjoying the chance to relax and spend time with her friend. When Gabrielle finished, she encouraged her to tell another, and soon she was hearing about Theseus and his battle against the Minotaur. When Gabrielle finished her tale, Xena helped her to remove her ankle from the cold water and then wrapped it again, before lifting the bard into her arms. As Xena carried Gabrielle back to her bedroll, the young woman sighed and put her arms around her neck, leaning her head against Xenas shoulder. Xenas arms tightened reflexively around the bard and she suddenly found herself on unsteady legs, as a strange warmth began to spread through her body. Forcing herself to concentrate on walking, she somehow managed to deposit Gabrielle safely on her bedroll without dropping her on the hard ground. Rummaging through the saddlebags, she found the medicine she wanted and made some tea. "This will help ease the pain," Xena said, as she handed the mug to her friend and then sat down across from her.
Nodding, Gabrielle took the drink from her and took a small sip. Surprised that, for once, Xena hadnt given her some vile tasting concoction, she smiled and downed the rest of the tea. "Thanks," she said, as she handed the mug back to the warrior.
"No problem. Can I get you anything else?"
Gabrielle thought for a second before grinning at her impishly. "Sure, how about a story?"
Amazed, Xena just looked at her for a moment. "A story?"
"Yeah, a story. Tell me a story."
"Gabrielle, Im not a bard, and Ive told you before I dont know any stories," Xena protested.
"Then tell me a story about you." Seeing the look on Xenas face, she hurried on. "I know, I know, you dont like talking about yourself. Okay, tell me a story about Cor."
Xena thought for a moment before shrugging her shoulders. "Did you want to know something in particular about him?"
What did she want to know about Cor? For starters, she wanted to know if he and Xena had been in love when they had known each other before. Even more important though, was the question as to whether or not Xena was in love with him now. Startled by the direction of her thoughts and the chill that ran through her at the idea that Xena might be in love with Cor, Gabrielle paused for several seconds before replying. Realizing that Xena had begun to look at her rather strangely, she blurted out the first thing that came into her mind. "You said Cor could beat you in combat, that youd be hesitant to face him in battle. Is he really better than you?"
Surprised by Gabrielles question, Xena thought about her answer before replying. "Yes and no," she said, smiling at the expression on her friends face. "Cor is stronger than me. As a matter of fact, with the exception of Hercules, hes stronger than any man Ive ever known. On the other hand, Im faster; a lot faster. Im better with a sword than he is, but hes better with a staff than I am. As far as unarmed combat....," she paused, weighing various factors. "It would depend on whether a particular situation favored strength or speed I guess, although the one big advantage I have over him there is mobility. Its a little hard to do the kind of leaps and flips that I can do when youre as big as Cor."
"Have the two of you ever actually fought one another?"
Xena nodded. "I assume you mean besides simple sparring? Yes, twice."
"Why did you fight...and who won?"
Xena was quiet for a moment, while her mind traveled back to the first time she had ever faced off against Cor. "The first time we fought was before he joined my army. I was impressed with his intelligence and his skill, so I disabled him using pressure points and asked him to join me." She chuckled before continuing. "Pressure points depend on speed, not strength, and Cor had never seen anyone use them before. He wasnt prepared for that kind of attack."
"And was that when he joined you?" Gabrielle asked.
Xena nodded. "Yes it was, although Id have probably let him go even if he had refused. As for the second time we fought...that was after we had been together for awhile. We had a...a disagreement about the best way to handle a situation. Cor considered the issue a matter of honor, and eventually he challenged me over it. His challenge was a personal thing, just between the two of us, and we settled it in private. I defeated him again, mainly because of Cors other weakness. He tends to be a pretty conservative fighter, fairly predictable once you know him. We had been sparring together for months by that time and I could anticipate nearly all his moves before he could act on them. Afterwards, I made him swear that, as long as he was in my army, he would never raise a hand against me again." She grinned wryly. "Then I agreed he was right in the first place and we handled the situation his way. Now...will that count as a story?"
Gabrielle smiled. "I suppose Ill have to accept it. I doubt theres much chance of getting another one out of you, is there?"
"Nope," Xena replied with a grin, before rising to rinse out Gabrielles mug and put it away, feeling her heart soar when she heard the bards soft laugh.
"How about we just talk then?" Gabrielle asked with a smile
Knowing that talking would help keep her friends mind off what she had seen earlier, Xena agreed. She did her best to keep up her side of the conversation, although Gabrielle often had to carry much of the momentum. While they talked, Xena collected kindling for the nights fire and laid out the other bedrolls, placing hers as close to Gabrielles as she dared. Finally, as the sun began to dip low towards the horizon, Xena started the fire, knowing that Cor would soon return.
It was almost dark when Cor walked into the camp with his arms full, looking tired but happy. "Hope everyones hungry for quail," he said, as he began dropping all the items he was carrying.
"Bout time you got back, I was getting ready to go fishing," Xena drawled.
"Fishing hmmm? Well youve always been good at that, havent you?" he replied innocently, but Gabrielle couldnt miss the wicked gleam in his eyes. To her amazement, she thought she saw Xena blush. "I dont suppose theres any chance youll be cooking supper tonight, is there? No...I guess not," he sighed mournfully, when he saw her expression. "Poor Cor; work work work. All he ever does is work."
Trying not to smile at his feeble play for sympathy, Xena relented somewhat. "Ill tell you what Cor. If you cook supper, Ill start drying those plants you collected...provided that you give me some of them when Im done."
"Deal! Hah, I knew I could sucker you in," he said with a grin, as he began to prepare their dinner.
Xena just shook her head and began gathering everything he had dropped earlier. To Gabrielles surprise, the warrior then carried everything over to sit beside her. Smiling at the bard while she sat down, Xena began arranging the bundles in front of her. "I thought you might like to learn what these plants do and how to prepare them for use."
Gabrielle nodded. She was always happy to learn about things like this, but she was even happier to have Xena there beside her. As she listened to her friend describe the uses for all of the items Cor had collected, Gabrielle found herself constantly staring at Xena, captivated by her beauty. She had to keep reminding herself to focus on her friends words. Several times, Xena leaned across her to pick up one of the bundles that was just out of her reach and Gabrielle found herself mesmerized by the intoxicating scent that was distinctly Xena. As she handed one of the bundles to her, their fingers briefly touched and the young woman felt her heart begin to race from the momentary contact.
Noticing her friends startled expression, Xena grew worried. "Gabrielle, is something wrong?"
"No, nothings wrong Xena," Gabrielle said brightly, forcing a smile onto her face.
Still watching her friend with more than a little concern, Xena hesitated, not convinced that everything was truly all right. Placing a gentle hand on Gabrielles shoulder, she tried again. "Are you sure? Is your ankle bothering you?" she asked, fervently hoping that, in her mind, Gabrielle wasnt reliving the scene from earlier in the day.
Gabrielle swallowed hard, as she fought to control the sensations that Xenas simple touch were causing to build within her. "Im fine, just a little tired I guess," she managed to say, amazed that her voice hadnt cracked.
Xena nodded. "We can finish this later if you want. Why dont you lay down until supper is ready and get some rest?"
"Okay, I think I will," Gabrielle agreed, although sending the other woman away was exactly the opposite of what she wanted to do. She watched while Xena gathered everything up and then smiled at the warrior, before stretching out on her side and closing her eyes, determined to force everything that had just happened out of her mind.
Xena quickly finished preparing the plants she had already started on. She decided to leave the ones she hadnt had a chance to discuss with Gabrielle until later, in case the bard wanted to learn about them as well. Since supper still wasnt finished, she went to check on Argo and then began to collect more firewood. By the time she returned to their camp, dinner was ready. Knowing that the young woman would not want to miss a meal, Xena went to wake her up.
Gabrielle heard Xena approaching, but feigned sleep while she tried to relax. Her mind was still racing from her earlier reaction to Xenas closeness. As she felt Xenas hand on her shoulder, gently shaking her, and heard the warriors soft voice calling her name, she rolled over and pretended to yawn. Inhaling deeply, she smiled up at her friend. "Smells like dinner must be ready."
Xena nodded. "Do you want to eat here or closer to the fire?" she asked
"The fire would be better," she replied and stretched out her hand, waiting for Xena to help her rise.
To her surprise, the warrior reached down and gathered her up into her arms. Seeing the flustered expression on her friends face, Xena chuckled. "I told you, its easier this way," she said, as she carried Gabrielle over to the fire, before setting her down again.
Cor grinned at Gabrielle and then handed her dinner to her. "Looks like you have her well trained," he quipped. "I could never get her to carry me like that when my ankle was hurt."
Xena rolled her eyes while Gabrielle laughed. "I notice you dont get my dinner for me, and that weighs a lot less than either you or Gabrielle," she said dryly, as she got something for herself to eat and then sat down next to the bard.
Cor held his hands up in mock surrender, before settling down with his own food. Dinner passed quickly and quietly, with a minimum of conversation. Afterwards, Cor examined Gabrielles ankle and, much to her relief, he assured her that she would likely be able to walk on it by the next day, although he wanted to put cold water on it one last time. As he carefully picked her up and began carrying her to the river, he saw Xena watching him intently and he grinned to himself at the fleeting expression of jealousy he saw cross her face.
The water was unbelievably cold against her skin. Gabrielle was relieved when Cor was finally helping her to remove her ankle from the icy river and was carrying her back to the fire. There she found Xena waiting for her with a warm blanket. The Warrior Princess smiled at her as she wrapped the blanket around her shoulders, before leaning in close to ask if Gabrielle needed anything else. Wanting more than anything to just have Xena sit beside her, Gabrielle shook her head, unable to find the words to ask for what she most desired.
As Xena slowly rose to her feet, she noticed that Cor was watching her with a strange smile. Arching an eyebrow, she waited to see if he would enlighten her as to what he found so entertaining, but he merely grinned at her innocently. Shrugging her shoulders, Xena walked over to retrieve her sword, before coming back to the fire to sit near Gabrielle. As she sharpened the blade, she relaxed and talked about inconsequential matters with Cor. After several minutes had passed, she realized that Gabrielle was being much too quiet and, looking at her, Xena saw that she was still shivering. Putting her sword down, she moved to her friends side. "Cold?" she asked gently, as she lightly caressed the bards cheek with the back of her hand.
Looking into Xenas eyes, Gabrielle swallowed hard at the concern that she saw there. Nodding her head, she attempted to smile. "Yeah a little," she said, trying to keep her teeth from chattering.
Xena hesitated for a moment, before removing her breastplate and setting it carefully to the side. Lifting the blanket from around the bards shoulders, she moved in to sit behind her. Extending her long legs out along both sides of her friend, she carefully pulled Gabrielle back against her chest as she wrapped the blanket around the both of them. Holding the young woman securely in her embrace, she leaned forward to talk softly into her ear. "This should help. If it doesnt, well make Cor build the biggest fire in all of Greece."
Gabrielle sighed with contentment when she felt Xenas strong arms around her, and settled back against her friend to get more comfortable. Already she could feel Xenas warmth penetrating her skin and she couldnt remember the last time she had felt so happy and so safe.
Cor rose to get his own sword, trying unsuccessfully to hide a smile. He returned to the fire and began to sharpen the blade, ignoring the suspicious looks that Xena was giving him. Noticing that Gabrielle seemed to be feeling much better, he asked her to tell a story. Soon they were listening to a tale about Persephone and Hades, and the sadness of Demeter at the loss of her daughter. Gabrielle told the tale well, but it was obvious that she was growing tired. When she finished, Cor decided to opt for a different kind of entertainment. Reaching into his pack, he brought out a small wooden flute and, to Gabrielles delight, he began to expertly play a tune upon it.
As he finished, Gabrielle applauded. "I didnt know you could play like that Cor. Youre really very good."
Grinning roguishly, he winked at her. "I have many skills."
Laughing, she looked up at Xena, who was glaring at Cor with mock ferocity. Seeing Gabrielles smiling face, the Warrior Princess felt happier than she had in weeks and had to fight the urge to hold the bard even tighter. Smiling back down at her friend, she mentally thanked Cor for what he had done for Gabrielle. Shifting the bard within her embrace, she brought the young woman even closer to her in the process.
Gabrielle turned back to Cor. "Do you sing too?" she asked. She felt, rather than heard, Xena begin to laugh.
An abashed expression stole over Cors features. "Ahh, no. Singing is not one of my talents.
Xena snickered. "A shame too. Someone who loves the sound of his own voice as much as Cor does, should really have a better singing voice."
Cor turned slightly red with embarrassment as both Gabrielle and Xena laughed. "Fine, keep it up and I wont play another song for you," he finally threatened with a grin. Seeing that they were going to behave, he thought for a moment before beginning to play once more, this time choosing a peaceful little tune that soothed the nerves and calmed the soul.
As they listened to Cor play, Xena could feel Gabrielle begin to relax against her and knew that the little bard was drifting off to sleep. She held her friend securely, not wanting to lose this moment and the overwhelming feelings of peace and joy that this simple pleasure held for her. Eventually Cor finished playing and Xena could tell that Gabrielle was sound asleep, but she resisted the impulse to release her friend. Finally, she sighed and carefully pulled away from Gabrielle, before reaching down to lift her into her arms and carry her to her bedroll. Placing her on the blankets, Xena found herself unable to walk away. Smoothing Gabrielles hair back away from her face, Xena sat for several long moments just gazing upon her, before pulling the blankets up around her and moving to sit at the fire with Cor.
Without a word, Xena picked up her sword again and resumed sharpening it. Despite her best efforts, her thoughts centered on Gabrielle. The warriors heart twisted in her chest as she looked over at her friend. Lying there on her bedroll, the bard seemed incredibly fragile and vulnerable.
This should never have happened, Xena thought angrily. She should never have had to see something like that! Unfortunately, she wasnt entirely certain if she was angry with the man who had committed the atrocity that Gabrielle had witnessed, or with herself for exposing Gabrielle to it. Taking a deep breath, she laid her sword aside but her eyes never left the sleeping bard. Gods above, there was a moment earlier today when I thought I had lost her. The expression on her face....How long until theres nothing left of the idealistic girl from Poteidaia? How long until she loses the rest of her innocence? "Another piece gone....," Xena whispered.
"What?" Cor asked, surprised by her sudden words.
Xena looked at him with confusion, not aware at first that she had spoken aloud. Realizing what she had said, she shrugged as she said lifelessly, "I said another piece gone. Gabrielle lost another piece of her innocence today, because Im too selfish to do whats best for her and send her away." Xena closed her eyes as pain flooded through her. "How can I let her stay with me Cor? Its going to destroy her eventually if she doesnt leave. Why cant she see that and get away from me before its too late?"
Cor regarded Xena silently. Sighing deeply, he looked at her with sympathetic eyes. "I cant help you with all your questions my friend, but I can answer one of them for you. Gabrielle stays with you because its where she wants to be. She cares for you very much you know."
Xena nodded, not really wanting to contradict him. A voice deep inside, though, screamed out that Cor was wrong, completely and utterly wrong. Gabrielle stays because she has no place better to go, the voice said. When she had the chance to leave you for Perdicus, she certainly took it quickly enough!
Cor realized that Xena was still not completely satisfied but he had no clue as to what he could say that would convince her. Helplessly, he said what should have been obvious to her. "Gabrielle isnt a child Xena. Shes a grown woman capable of making her own decisions and accepting the consequences of those decisions. The sooner you accept that, the better off youll both be."
"So youre saying that I should just let her get hurt and do nothing to stop it?" Xena shot back angrily.
"No, Im saying that you cant protect her all the time and that if you try, youre just going to alienate her." Exasperated with her self-pity, he tried another tack. "Look, you seem to forget that people get hurt all the time, even when youre not around. Accidents happen. Villagers trip and injure themselves. People fall into rivers and drown. Riders...riders get thrown from their horses. Things happen," Cor said, his voice cracking as he said the last part. Taking a slow, deep breath, he composed himself and continued. "You cant prevent her from getting hurt, but you can help her to deal with it and to accept it, and you can learn to enjoy the time you have together, because the gods only know how much time that will be!"
Xena just glared at him, knowing that he was right and momentarily hating him for it. Cor, however, refused to back down and simply glared back at her. Finally, Xena cracked a wry smile and shook her head, her anger gone as quickly as it had arisen. "Maybe youre right Cor," she grudgingly conceded, "But that doesnt make it any easier."
"Uh huh, and since when have you ever chosen the easy route?" he asked, grinning at her. Rising to his feet, he moved to his bedroll, carefully placing his sword where it would be close at hand.
Feeling utterly exhausted and emotionally drained, Xena tossed another log onto the fire and moved to her own bedroll. She remove the rest of her armor and then placed her sword and chakram beside her sleeping mat. As she settled down next to Gabrielle, she heard the young bard start to cry out in her sleep and saw her begin to shake. Xena quickly rolled over to wake her from her nightmare but, as she leaned across her friend, Gabrielle immediately curled into her arms, instinctively seeking out the strength and security of the warriors embrace. Xena was stunned at the sensations that shot through her when she felt Gabrielle press up against her body, and she had to struggle to contain her emotions as they threatened to race out of control. Looking at Gabrielle, Xena felt her heart start to pound and had to forcibly resist the urge to lean down and kiss her friend. Knowing that she would be infinitely better off if she put some distance between them, she started to ease out of the bards arms while she still had the strength to do so. As she moved away, though, Gabrielle began to whimper and the sound nearly tore Xenas heart in two. Gritting her teeth, she moved back to hold Gabrielle, knowing that this was the only way her friend would be able to sleep. As she placed a protective arm around the bard and drew her closer, Xena knew that there would be very little sleep for her that night.
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Continued - Chapters 6 - 7