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Chapter Two-The First Glimmers of Hope
Written By: Caina
Q. Fuller
www.cainafuller.homestead.com/home.html
Xena awoke to the sound of yet
another day of rain and another day of knowing Gabrielle was no longer in her life. The pain that had become a constant part of her
existence hurt with the same raw intensity it had when Gabrielle first died an eternity
ago. As she lay there listening to the rain
mingled with the sound of Varias slow breathing, it occurred to her that she had
plans to attack the temple below.
Xena sat up, her sudden movements
rousing Varia from her sleep. Damn! Xena thought, as she looked around for her weapons. Varia had let her sleep through the night knowing
full well she had plans
By the expression on Varias sleepy face, Xena began to
suspect more than physical weariness was the cause for her heavy slumber.
What the hell did you do to
me?
Varia rubbed her eyes, looking for
all the world more like an innocent child than the conniving little snipe she really was. I gave you something to help you
sleep.
Careful not to hit her head on the
low ceiling of their shelter, Xena stood and looked out into the dreary morning. The clouds seemed heavier and grayer than they had
the day before, showing Xena Mother Nature had no intention of lifting the storm any time
soon. This was perfectly fine for Xena since
she didnt believe she would be able to enjoy a beautiful day ever again without
Gabrielle by her side to share it. Singing
birds and blooming flowers were the last things she wanted to see right now anyway.
Im not even going to ask
you why you did that, Xena grumbled, looking around for her weapons. To hell with the innocents, she thought. Im attacking now. I wont stop until every last man in that
temple is dead.
Xenas eyes scanned the area
around her but it was clear her weapons were gone. Irritation
with herself for allowing Varia to drug her and the rage that had been building since
shed lost Gabrielle was boiling within her and if she didnt do something soon
she was going to kill Varia for getting in the way of her revenge. Xena let out a cry of sheer frustration and
grabbed Varia by the neck. The younger woman
didnt resist in the least.
I dont have time for your
little games Varia! Where are my
weapons?
I hid them.
Why?
I dont want you to attack
the village below Xena. Its not what
Gabrielle would want you to do.
Xenas grip tightened around
Varias neck until it was dangerously tight, and Xena was finding more difficult than
she cared to admit to loosen up. Varia
forced her body to remain relaxed, though her breathing now came in ragged gasps. The younger woman could see in Xenas eyes
the lust to shed blood in her anger over Gabrielles loss. Would the blood she shed be hers this day?
Dont, Xena said,
her voice a dangerous whisper, you dare presume to tell me what Gabrielle would and
would not want. No one knows her the way I
know her.
Knew.
Xena blinked, looking down at
Varias face in confusion. What?
No one knew Gabrielle
the way you knew her. Xena,
Varia forced her words around Xenas restrictive hand, Gabrielle is gone.
Dont you think I know
that?
No, I dont think you
do.
With a rage that frightened both
women, Xena shoved Varia back against the bedroll and ran into the rain. She didnt need her weapons to kill the
bastards below. She was her own weapon and
she would rip each and every one of them apart with her bare hands if she had to.
Varia picked herself up off the furs
and ran after Xena. The rain was falling from
the sky like shards of ice that felt like needles striking her bare skin and robbing her
body of its precious warmth. Xena,
wait!
Ive waited long
enough!
Varia inserted herself between Xena
and Argo before the taller woman could mount the horse and ride away to lose herself in
hatred. I cant let you do
this.
This struck Xena as an incredibly
amusing statement. Sugar, you are
coming dangerously close to getting yourself hurt. Youve
about pushed my patients to the limit.
Just listen before you go. Please.
Since when did you become such
a talker? For that matter, since when did you
care whether a bunch of thug men got what was coming to them?
Since I met Gabrielle. Xena, I know the story of Callisto. I know how you promised her that if she died
before you, you wouldnt become a monster again.
Xena looked deeply into Varias
eyes. She could see the genuine love and
concern that filled them, and she knew all of it was for her. She turned away from it as memories of that same
goodness and light in Gabrielles eyes flashed before her minds eye. That promise
if only she hadnt made it. Perhaps that was the nagging doubt that held her
up even more than Varias foolish attempts to talk her out of her plans to destroy
Apollos followers just as assuredly as Gabrielle had destroyed the very same
god.
A pair of cold yet soft hands found
their way to her shoulders from behind Xena, and she could almost feel Gabrielle there in
Varias place. Oh, how she missed her. This was a burden Xena just didnt know if
she would be able to bear.
Xena, I know you dont
want to do this. I know you are a woman who
keeps her promises. If you kill to avenge
Gabrielle, youll be breaking your word and you will never forgive yourself.
The pain, anger and rage were more
than she could bare but Xena refused to allow herself to weep in front of Varia. She just couldnt. She knew the woman would hold her close and tight,
and Xena found herself afraid she would like it. If
she accepted anything from Varia, no matter how innocently it was offered, she would be
betraying Gabrielle regardless of the fact the Bard had told her to go on to other loves
after her.
Let it go Xena.
No. I cant.
I just cant.
Varia came to stand before Xena, her
full lips trembling with
what? Cold? Emotion? Perhaps
both, Xena thought as she stared down at her. She
wanted to let Varia hold her so much. She
needed the comfort of anothers arms wrapped around her now more than shed ever
needed it before in her life.
I know youre not ready
for another lover, but what about a friend? Let me be here for you. Let me be here for you. The way you were for me and my sisters when we
lost Marga.
Suddenly the weight of her pain was
more than she could bear and Xenas knees literally gave out beneath her. She collapsed to the ground and Varia followed,
wrapping her arms around her and holding her close. Varias
love felt better than Xena wanted to admit but she didnt have it within her to
resist any longer. She wept for the first
time since the funeral, and the sobs were so great they hurt. All the pain came out in a flood that would have
drowned her, had Varia not been there to hold her head above water.
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Xena, Gabrielle and the remaining
fifteen of the Elite Guard healthy enough to continue on to Corinth traveled in quiet,
though Xenas mind was a storm of thoughts and feelings. She was still attempting to figure out what made
this woman tick and why she was so intent on being what Xena considered overly attentive
to the Virgins in their care. True the women
had been locked up in Aphrodites temple for a few days with some minor wounds, but
Aphrodite had fed and watered them. Why was
she treating them as if theyd been at war for the past month?
Its her heart, Xena finally
decided. Gabrielle had a heart as big as the
Aegean Sea and she genuinely cared about how these women were doing. She was a woman Xena found intriguing for the
simple fact that sometimes she got the impression Gabrielle had seen a lot of the world
and had taken a hard view to life. Yet at
other times Gabrielle had an almost child-like innocence and Xena was absolutely certain
she had lived a sheltered life and knew nothing of how cruel the world could be. All the while Xena fought to decide which was the
truth about Gabrielle she could feel her heart pound with a desire to pull the beautiful
blond into the trees and take her heart, body and soul.
Other than the physical attraction
Xena was feeling for Gabrielle, she got the impression that this woman could show her what
it meant to trust again, and this was something she found herself desperately
wanting to be able to do as time went on.
As the small caravan made their way
to Corinth Gabrielle could feel Xenas blue eyes boring into her. Had this been her woman she wouldnt have
thought anything of it. As a matter of fact
she would have enjoyed it, yet Gabrielle knew this was not her Xena. This was a complete stranger to her, and with
every passing moment she became more aware of how dangerous the woman riding next to her
could be.
Do you have a portrait
artist? Gabrielle asked after minutes of feeling Xena stare at her. This world's Warrior Princess frowned and shook
her head no at the odd question.
No, why?
I was going to suggest you have
him draw a likeness of me. It will last
longer.
Xena laughed at Gabrielles
sarcasm, genuinely amused. Only Amaranda had
the guts to say something like that to her, but her sarcasm never seemed funny to Xena. Only irritating.
You seem so relaxed with
me, Xena said. As if you know
me.
Youd be surprised how
well I know you. As soon as the words
left her lips Gabrielle regretted them. Xena
was now looking at her with a slight air of suspicion.
Really? And how would that be?
Actually, Gabrielle
replied, wanting to cover her words, I meant I know your type.
What type is that? Xena
asked defensively. Gabrielle chose to ignore
the tone her tone of voice and continued on bravely.
Well, lets see. Youre brave but also arrogant. Youre honorable yet cold. You want to save the world but you care nothing
for the people youre risking your life for. As
a matter of fact, youre so mistrustful of the very same people you fight to save in
the name of your goddess that you have come to resent them.
Incredible, Xena thought. She could only ride along for a while in
speechless awe that this woman had been able to sum her up in only a few seconds. It really did seem as if Gabrielle knew her as
well as she knew herself. However
she
couldnt just let Gabrielle say the negative about her without throwing in the good. Even if it were all true. Thats almost me.
Whats left? Xena
could see a mischievous twinkle in Gabrielles eyes that told Xena she liked this
little game. She hated to admit it, but Xena
was enjoying it too.
You forgot to mention I have
talent.
Oh youve got that
alright, Gabrielle said, her face beaming brightly with her beautiful smile which
only melted Xenas heart even more. In
abundance.
Not to mention intelligence,
passion and loyalty.
All of the above, yes.
Why didnt you mention
those? Xena asked with an almost childish petulance to her voice.
Why
do I care if you see these qualities in me? Xena found herself thinking. They were strangers after all, and even
though she wanted Gabrielle, she had nothing to prove to her. Or did she? As
Xena watched the sun set, casting its golden light over Gabrielles fair skin, she
knew in her heart that she would lose this beauty if she didnt prove herself worthy. Now her only question was how to convince
Gabrielle she was worth sticking around for?
Xena?
Xena pulled herself from her thoughts
and looked Gabrielle in the eye. That strong
desire to make love to Gabrielle right then and there flooded Xena again but she held
herself in check. She couldnt just
forget about Athena altogether now could she?
Dont you think we should
make camp soon?
Gabrielle was right of course. It would be getting dark soon and she had to
prepare the camp against any surprise attack Marcus might have planned for them. She just hated to stop now when they were so close
to Corinth.
Youre right. Marcus may have something planned. He has a
reputation for being ruthless. Ill set
up.
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As Xena organized the camp that
night, Athena materialized in the quarters on Mt. Olympus
she shared with Xena and studied the neatly ordered room.
Her mortal lover was obsessively neat and constantly repeated one of her favorite
creeds: A place for everything and everything
in its place.
Now she was off in her element: Out in the world ready to do battle at the head of
some of the best fighters Greece army had to offer. She
also had a new young beauty to entertain her while she was there, and Athena found herself
wondering if they were making love at this very moment.
With a sigh she pushed these thoughts from her mind stared out the window.
This Gabrielle woman was a mystery to
Athena. She was so different from any other
mortal shed ever met in the way that she was strong, beautiful and intelligent. Above all she didnt seem to hold the gods in
high regard.
This was an idea completely foreign
to Athena, since every single man or woman shed ever encountered in her own land, or
even in foreign lands, worshiped her on sight. The
idea of having her favor should have left Gabrielle speechless with awe but instead
shed merely shrugged it off as if it were nothing.
Perhaps, Athena thought humbly, her favor was nothing to become excited
over.
Athena lay down on the bed and buried
her face in Xenas pillow. It smelled of
the jasmine soap Xena loved to wash her hair with, and the scent conjured up countless
memories of the love theyd come to share since they met and the passion they had
shared in this very same bed. Sometimes they
were content to simply hold one another through the night as they talked of their past
victories in battle. Other times they were
insatiable and it seemed no matter how much they made love they would never be able to
quench that thirst of passion they had for one another.
Then Gabrielle came along. Athena remembered the look in Xenas eyes the
first moment shed laid eyes on Gabrielle. She
was well aware of the bond Xena had been searching for all her life. A soul mate Xena had told her when they first met,
was out there for her somewhere and all she had to do was find her. Over the years Athena had come to believe she was
that soul mate. Now she wondered if perhaps
Xena felt this new woman was the one shed been longing for all her life.
What if she is? Athena asked herself. What if Gabrielle is the one Xena was meant to be
with instead of me? The idea of Xena loving
another woman over her was almost unbearable to Athena.
There was something about the Warrior Princess, a quality no other woman in history
could ever possess. Her spirit was
unbreakable, her beauty impossible to match. She
was, in Athenas opinion, the perfect woman. There
had been many times when she was tempted to make Xena immortal so she would never have to
lose her, or see Xenas beauty fade with age.
Athena walked back over to her
window, holding the pillow to her chest so she could continue to breathe in the familiar
scent of the one she loved. Perhaps she
should bow out gracefully
No. She was
the goddess of War and she would be damned if she allowed some irreverent stranger win
Xena away from her. This left her with only
one option: Kill Gabrielle. The best way to win a contest was to have no
competition. If Gabrielle were dead the
prize would once again be all hers, and Xena would eventually forget the woman ever
existed.
The only problem was figuring out how
to get rid of Gabrielle without Xena knowing she had a hand in it. Killing Gabrielle, Athena thought, might turn Xena
against me forever. Ill have to be
very, very discreet. As she stared out of the
window that overlooked the glory of Mt. Olympus, Athenas mind wandered to the one
man who could make it all possible. A smile
curled the corners of her lips up, making Athena look every bit as cold of heart as she
really was. She had a plan of action, and
that feeling of helpless fear began to melt away.
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The next day Marcus reclined into the
soft cushions of his bed and closed his eyes. After
three days of arduous travel hed finally made it back to Potidea, the location of
his stronghold. Every muscle in his
considerably powerful body ached from the struggle to safely escape Athena, Xena and her
Elite Guard. Now he was home and he wanted
nothing but the comfort of one woman hed ever allowed himself to even come close to
liking enough to keep around.
Lila!
A raven-haired beauty entered the
room, wearing a gauzy black gown that did very little to decently cover her body. He knew she hated him, and that may have been part
of the reason he wanted her so much. In his
eyes she was the perfect woman in form and mind, and he craved her touch, her smell and
feel every moment he was away from her. The
flesh of another woman never satisfied him the way hers did.
Yes? Lila said, stopping
half way into the room. She never came to him
willingly. He always had to demand her obedience, sometimes with a threat against the
family she loved so much. He knew they were
the only reason she didnt at least attempt escape.
She stayed for their safety, especially that of her older sister Gabrielle.
Gabrielle
She was mainly the
reason he called her here now. How many
sisters do you have Lila?
The smooth, creamy skin of her brow
crinkled in a frown. What a ridiculous
question. Did he finally lose what little bit of a mind he was born with? Lila wondered.
I have one sister. Gabrielle.
Sudden panic flooded Lilas gut
at the thought of him taking her beloved sister and ruining her sweet innocence. Gabrielle was the main reason she stayed and
allowed Marcus to violate her at his whim. She
hated everything about the man: his smell,
his touch, and the feel of his lips against her every night. He had an insatiable appetite for sex and he
always left her feeling bruised and sick after he used her, yet, she would stay with him a
thousand lifetimes if it meant her sister would be safe.
Are you sure about that?
My parents have only told me of
one sister. Why do you ask?
Had she been anyone else questioning
him, Marcus would have summarily executed them. Yet,
she was the one he felt the most for so he always allowed her to ask whatever she liked. That didnt mean he would always answer.
The woman whod ruined his
attack on the Elite Guard and killed his most reliable informant had been and exact double
for his lovers sister. She was a few years
older, true, but still theyd been exactly the same.
The theory that everyone had a double came to mind, but this was just too close. With the exception of the shorter, blonder hair,
the stranger with the sais had been an exact replica of Lilas sister.
Marcus eyes drank in the sight
of Lilas scantily clad body and his man-hood flooded with hot desire. Hed figure out the mystery of
Gabrielles double later. For now, he
needed to work out the soreness in his muscles with the best exercise life had to offer: sex.
Come to me.
Lila gave a sigh that sounded every
bit as tired as she felt in heart and soul and did as she was told. The gods forbid something ever happen to her
family because of her own selfish desires to avoid this monster.
When Lila was close enough Marcus
grabbed her wrist and pulled her down onto the bed. As
usual, he wasted no time with foreplay. Instead,
he hiked up the gauzy material of her gown and entered her with violent force, hurting her
with every move he made. It was this pain and
helpless anger he saw in her eyes that made the sex so good for him. Unlike with his other women it never dulled, no
matter how many times he took her it remained as raw and intense as it did the first time.
Lila prayed to any god who may listen
that he would hurry and climax. He was the
only man shed ever been with, and each time the sex was painful beyond belief. The experience always left her hurting and sick to
the point she wondered if one day it would kill her.
Would she ever get used to it? Would
she ever escape this monster and live a life where lovemaking with a man was pleasurable? No, she thought to herself. If she were ever free
of Marcus, she would never be with another man as long as she lived.
Finally he did climaxed and rolled
off of her, but the position of his sweaty body pinned her against the wall. He wants to keep me here in torture for who knows
how long, Lila thought miserably. Feeling
bolder than usual, she got up on her knees and attempted to crawl over him. He stopped her immediately of course.
Are you finished with me? Lila asked. She
wanted so much to get to a bath and wash the stench of her captor from her body. How she hated him.
Lilas most erotic fantasy concerning Marcus was driving a blade through his
heart.
Leave if you want. Ill call you when Im
hungry
again.
Lila crawled over him but Marcus
wrapped a hand over her throat tightly, almost cutting off her ability to breathe.
Sometimes he got the almost irresistible urge to kill her, though he always managed to
pull himself back in until he could exercise his blood lust on some peasant in the
village. He never understood this urge, but
it had hold of him now, and Lila could see it, just as she always could and it frightened
her. Not because she had a great desire for
her own life, but because she knew if she were gone, Gabrielle would be his next target.
Dont get any ideas about
venturing beyond the sound of my voice now, you hear?
In a rare display of courage Marcus
loved to see in her, she pulled herself free with a sudden jerk. I wouldnt dream of it.
Lila left the room, leaving Marcus
alone with his thoughts. Now that hed
used Lila to satisfy his base desires his mind was clear enough to think. Hed worked long and hard to lure
Athenas Elite Guard into that trap and Gabrielle, or a woman that looked just like
her, had ruined it. He wondered if perhaps
she had a sister he wasnt aware of.
No, he thought. That doesnt make sense. The woman whod ruined the biggest sale of
his career was not only older than the Gabrielle that lived in his small kingdom; she was
a warrior as well. If she knew she had family
living under his rule she would have done something by now to liberate them. There was something about her. Shed looked at him in a way that had sent an
uncomfortable chill down his spine.
He got up and went over to the tub of
water that waited for him. Hed had it
poured scalding hot but now it had cooled enough for him to enjoy it. As he sank down into the water he could feel his
tight muscles relax beneath his skin, and through the window before him he watched the
young slave girl that was the Gabrielle he knew carry the days wash toward her
familys hovel. Something strange was
going on here, and as soon as he could relax he was going to find out what it was.
Marcus continued to watch her hang
the clothes she had washed up to dry. Gabrielle
was a beautiful creature in his eyes but she held no attraction for him. He liked to let Lila believe otherwise so she
wouldnt be tempted to run, but there was something defiant about Gabrielles
personality to the extent he knew he could never control her they way he did Lila. He knew Gabrielle would die before she allowed him
to use her the way Lila did, and that kind of bravery in a woman turned him off like
nothing else could. He liked a woman he could
manipulate and control, and Gabrielle was not it.
As Marcus lay back, his eyes closing
and his body relaxing, he was completely unprepared for the strong hand that gripped the
top of his head and pushed him beneath the surface of the water. He struggled to push against the impossibly
powerful grip but to no avail. He was unable
to move in any direction to free himself and the hand held him under so long his lungs
began to burn with the need for air. Just
when he could take no more the grip released and he sat up out of the water, gasping for
air.
Athena came around to stand before
him, her lilting laughter filling the hot air of the early afternoon. She rested one wet hand on the hilt of her sword
and looked him in the eye. Marcus was sure
she was going to kill him for his attack against her women and the Virgins that
followed her sister Hestia. Hed
wondered how long it would take before even he went to far.
Athena, he said, his
voice resounding with a confidence he didnt feel.
Her strength was born of supernatural means and he knew this was one opponent he
didnt stand a chance of defeating. He
hated her immediately, just like he hated all women in a position of authority over him. What brings you to my little kingdom?
She only stared at him, her gray eyes
almost glowing in the bright light that flooded the room from the high sun outside. She looked every bit as inhuman as she really was. It was disgusting really.
You have gone too far,
she said. Her voice was little more than a whisper barely audible over the sound of the
young children playing around their slave mothers skirts outside. He looked around for a weapon even though he knew
it would be useless against her.
Youve come to kill
me?
Yes, I have. Unless
Ah, Marcus thought, hiding the smile
that threatened to split his face in an irreverent grin that could cost him his life. She wanted to use him for something. Wonder what that could be?
Unless what?
You can save your life if you
succeed in a mission for me.
Me on a mission for the great
Athena? What could that possibly be?
Something I know youll
take great pleasure in doing. I want you to
attack my Guard Elite Guard once again.
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Gabrielle and Xena arrived in the
city of Corinth and delivered the Virgins to the waiting arms of their goddess. She had appeared at the foot of her temple, arms
outstretched and eyes flooding with tears of relief to see her children safely home, and
the Virgins were equally happy to see their goddess.
She laid hands on each of them, healing their small wounds and communicating her
love for them, which they reciprocated with joyous songs of praise.
Gabrielle found the entire scene
touching, but Xena only watched on with mild disgust clouding her beautiful blue eyes. Something wrong Xena?
Look at that, Xena said,
unaware of the venom that tainted her words. She
did nothing to save them. Nothing. Yet the way theyre acting youd think
it was her instead of Athena whod taken the initiative to save their weak
little-
Xena, Gabrielle said,
talking over Xenas harsh words. Youre
looking at it all wrong.
Well then how should I look at
it?
Before Gabrielle could answer, Hestia
came over to them, a scroll in one of her delicate hands.
Gabrielle had always believed her to be one of the most beautiful of goddesses,
even more so than Aphrodite. Her hair was
thick, curly and midnight black. Her skin was
dark as if she spent every moment of every day outside sunning, and she had large, soulful
brown eyes to compliment her skin tone. Gabrielle
didnt doubt every male god on Olympus resented Zeus for granting Hestia her wish to
remain a virgin for eternity, though Gabrielle couldnt imagine wishing eternal
chastity on oneself.
To each her own I suppose, Gabrielle
thought, smiling at the Virgin goddess that approached.
Xena bowed deeply with a respect
Gabrielle knew she didnt feel and she was disturbed by how hypocritical Xenas
attitude was. Gabrielle had known Xena to be
many things in her lifetime, but a hypocrite was never one.
Remember, she thought to herself. This
isnt my Xena.
My Xena, Gabrielle thought. She was reminded that she had been gone from the
one she loved for three days and she still was no closer to an answer of why she was here
or how long she would have to remain. Perhaps
Hestia, in her gratitude, would assist her with answers to those questions.
Xena, Gabrielle. Thank you for bringing my daughters home.
Youre quite welcome
goddess, Xena said. Her voice reflected
all of her distaste in what she perceived to be weakness in Hestia, though her actions
reflected respect. This Xena was so
ambiguous. Gabrielle was aware now more than
ever of how many wrinkles there was in complex tapestry that was Xena, and only the iron
of selfless love would be capable of straightening her out.
Gabrielle. You have a visitor in the gardens.
Gabrielles eyebrows shot up
just as high as Xenas did at this unexpected news.
Really?
Its best you not keep her
waiting.
Gabrielle looked back at Xena who
nodded her approval then bowed to Hestia with genuine respect. Thank you goddess.
If this temple were anything like the
one Gabrielle knew in her own world then there should be no problem finding her way to the
gardens. She left the Virgin goddess behind
with Xena and entered the temple alone.
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Gabrielle found her visitor in the
gardens, sitting next to a magnificent sculpture of a dove.
The curves revealed by her scantily clad body were all to familiar to Gabrielle,
and she had to admit, shed never been so relieved to see Aphrodite as she was right
now.
Aphrodite. Thank the gods youve come.
Gabrielle didnt know what
shed been expecting but a lustful stare was not it.
Gooseflesh rose on her skin as this stranger behind a familiar face studied her
with open lust and licked her lips. She was
clearly not the same friend Gabrielle had come to know and love. There was also a strange scent that Gabrielle had
never smelled before. It was fleshy but
wonderfully feminine and intoxicating. It
invaded Gabrielles entire being and the first tendrils of dizziness began to wrap
around her mind. Gabrielle tried but she was
unable to identify what this power was reaching out to her, seemingly from Aphrodite.
So youre the other Gabrielle
huh?
This Aphrodites voice was heavy
and sensual in a way that put to shame the Aphrodite Gabrielle was accustomed to. This woman radiated sex like Gabrielle had never
seen, to the point she could literally smell it. Divine
pheromones? Gabrielle wondered. Whatever it was, it had become so strong she was
literally swimming in the intoxicating effects.
Aphrodite held up one long, delicate
finger and motioned for Gabrielle to come to her. When she got close enough, Aphrodite
stood took Gabrielles face in her hands. Her skin was soft and warm, just feeling
them made Gabrielles loins flood with desire. Without
really doing anything Gabrielle felt lost in Aphrodites smell and touch. It was like they were making love in an ethereal
kind of way. The entire experience was
intellectually wrong, but Gabrielle didnt give a damn. She liked the way this goddess made her feel and
she found her mouth watering in anticipation of a kiss.
Aphrodite didnt disappoint her.
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Xena excused herself from Hestia and
the Virgins with an excuse of needing a drink of water when the truth was she wanted to
get to the gardens to find out what was going on with Gabrielle and her mysterious
visitor. She rounded one corridor after
another until she came to the large double doors that opened onto the gardens. Before she could pull them open however, a
familiar voice rang out from behind her, sounding too loud in the hot afternoon air.
Eavesdropping now days Xena? Really, thats so juvenile dont you
think?
Xena turned to find Athena leaning
against the wall with her arms crossed beneath her considerable bosom. Athena.
What brings you here?
This is my sisters temple. I
have every right to be here.
Xena didnt have time for
Athenas jealousy right now. She wanted
to hear what was going on with Gabrielle in the gardens.
For all she knew, the woman she was falling head over heels in love with was
reconciling with some long lost love. Now all
Athena wanted to do was
who the hell knew.
Of course you do. I didnt mean to imply you-
Oh! Athena grunted with
disgust. Dont play
little-miss-reverence with me Xena. Its
really not you. Youre falling for her
arent you?
Thats ridiculous.
Alright then. Lets go home.
Youve finished your mission here.
Panic flooded Xenas stomach
with the tiny wings of a thousand wasps. She
couldnt leave now. Theres no
telling where Gabrielle would go or if she would even see her again. Athena saw that panic in Xenas eyes and her
own were filled with genuine hurt. Xena knew
Athena was no fool, and after all the goddess of war had done for her, she didnt
want to betray her. Yet she couldnt
help the connection she felt in her soul with Gabrielle.
She didnt want to hurt Athena but she didnt want to lose her chance
with Gabrielle either.
What about Gabrielle?
What about her?
Xena wracked her mind to come up with
a good reason not to return to Mt. Olympus
without actually coming right out and saying she wanted to stay so she could form a
relationship with another woman that completed her in a way Athena never could. It was her old selfish nature shining through
bright and clear, and Xena knew this was something shed have to give up if she were
to ever win Gabrielles heart.
Well? Athena said, waiting expectantly.
Shes come all this way
Athena. I cant just
abandon her.
Shes a big girl Xena. She saved your life, so what makes you think she
needs you to take care of her.
I know that. Its just
I
Athena placed her hands on her hips,
looking at Xena like a mother would look at a child trying to lie their way out of
trouble. Funny but that was exactly how Xena felt right now.
Damn it! Xena cursed to herself. She shared a long look with Athena that spoke
volumes more than she could if shed came right out and told the truth with her own
lips. Athena nodded, understanding.
I just want to get to know her
better Athena. Thats all, I
swear.
Ill bet you do. Ill see you around Xena.
With that, Athena walked away, fading
as she went, and Xena turned to the doors. As
quietly as she could she opened them and the sight she found literally made her heart feel
as if it had dropped from her chest.
Aphrodite held Gabrielles face
between her hands, claiming her mouth with a passionate kiss.
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Aphrodite finally broke what had to
be the longest, deepest kiss of Gabrielles life, and Gabrielle found herself
wondering if perhaps it wasnt the best. She
knew what she was experiencing was nothing more than the power of lust from a god, but was
all so intoxicating. The more Aphrodite
gave her the more she wanted.
Ive come to bring you a
message, Aphrodite whispered. In the
still hot air of the afternoon Xena had no difficulty hearing every whispered word.
Yes? Gabrielle said, her
words coming out more like a moan.
A couch appeared behind Gabrielle and
the two collapsed onto its soft cushions. Gabrielle
felt helpless with desire but she was unable to do more than hold on to Aphrodites
wrists. Her head rolled back under the gentle
guidance of the goddess of love and Aphrodite planted soft kisses on all the right places
on her neck until Gabrielles breath came in ragged gasps of pure need. It was beginning to have an effect on Xena as
well, and she licked her lips, wishing for all the world she were in Aphrodites
place right now.
Its from my alternate self in
your universe.
Yes
Xena frowned at this news. She knew almost nothing of alternate universes,
except what she heard from listening in on the conversations of the other gods on Olympus. There were supposedly an unlimited amount of
universes, all separated by a mysterious, unknowable force as thin as the skin of an
onion. Only the most powerful of the gods had
the power to punch through that force, but they chose not to for fear of paradox.
Now this goddess was all but making
love to a woman Xena desired to have as her own, and saying she wasnt even from this
universe? What did it all mean?
Gabrielle slumped back onto the
couch, literally drunk off the power of Love. Aphrodite
indulged herself in Gabrielles perfect flesh as she took her sweet time finishing
the message. Her hands caressed every part of
Gabrielles body, slipping under her clothes and gliding over the most sensitive
places of Gabrielles skin, leaving Gabrielle struggling for breath.
Aphrodite sent you here after
you were shot with an arrow. Your
lover
Xena
Aphrodite continued, though she stopped to run her tongue up
Gabrielles neck. It drove Gabrielle mad
with lust and Xena almost as mad with jealousy.
Yet at the same time Xenas
heart began to race at the sound of those words. She
had an alternate in Gabrielles world, and they were lovers! That explained so much about the connection
theyd made as well as how Gabrielle had known so much about her. She listened in rapt attention as Aphrodite
finished the rest of the story.
Xena
Again
Gabrielle moaned out the word and Xena could imagine the blonde beauty saying her name
that way as she drove her to the height of passion.
Xena
Time differs here than it does
in your world.
How so?
Time moves faster in the
universe you come from. Xena has been without
you for quite some time. Shes on
the verge of becoming a monster again. Varia
is trying to turn her from the path of vengeance but its questionable if shell
succeed.
This time Gabrielle took the
initiative and claimed Aphrodites lips in a kiss as she took in the news that her
lover was falling back into her former darkness. She
was doing her best to care but all she could think of was taking the woman in her arms and
spending the rest of her mortal life making love to her.
Aphrodite finally broke the kiss.
Take me
Gabrielle
whispered, her voice laden passion.
No dont, Xena thought, watching
the exchange with both growing jealousy and desire.
Turn down the charm Aphrodite, Xena whispered, trying to make it so by
the sheer force of her will.
I am to return you to a few
moments before your death. This way you can
save yourself and it will be as if nothing had ever changed.
Yes, Gabrielle said,
mentally wanting Aphrodite to do this while her body screamed for the goddess touch.
Are you ready to go now?
Now? Gabrielles eyes wandered over to the door
where they connected with Xenas blue orbs. The
sight of the familiar face was like having a bucket of ice-cold water splashed over her
and she sat up, away from Aphrodite. She
swooned, still dizzy from the power exuded by the goddess, but she forced herself to her
feet anyway. Guilt hit her like an anvil
falling from the sky. She felt as if
shed betrayed her love with this radically different Aphrodite, and it almost left
her feeling sick.
What about Xena?
I told you, Aphrodite
said. Her voice still dripped desire but it
no longer had the same effect as it did before. Gabrielle
watched as the doors slammed shut to the garden and the Xena that belonged to this world
was gone. Shes falling apart
without you.
I mean the Xena from this
world?
Aphrodite frowned in confusion. What about her? She has Athena.
Thats exactly what worries me,
Gabrielle thought. If Aphrodite could return
her to a few moments before her death then it wouldnt matter how long she stayed
here. She could set this Xena on the right
path and then go back to her own world, solving two problems at once.
I should stay here and help
this Xena.
Help her with what?
I dont know! Gabrielle said, her voice rising with frustration. I could help her
I could help her find
me!
What? Aphrodite came to stand behind Gabrielle, planting
kisses on her shoulder. The spell was broken
by Xenas face so the contact had almost no effect on her, but she didnt bother
to pull away from Aphrodite. She didnt
know this goddess like she did the one from her world and she didnt want to do
anything to offend her.
I can help Xena find my double. I do have one dont I?
Of course you do. Theres only one problem.
I should have known, Gabrielle
thought. She faced Aphrodite for the news.
Whats that?
Gods have the power to
move about at will, but mortals do not. The
longer you stay here, the more difficult it will be to get you back to your world. The door is closing, fast.
How long do I have?
One more day, tops. Then youll be trapped here for good.
That does it then, Gabrielle thought. She was going to have to leave without saving the
Xena of this universe. Give me as much
time as possible with her. Then well
go.
Aphrodite shrugged. Fine. Just
remember: You have to be at the gate in order
to make it.
The gate?
The goddess of love nodded. The same place you entered into our world. Ill meet you here, she pointed to the
ground, tomorrow. Well return to
the gate then.
Without waiting for Gabrielles
response Aphrodite faded away, no doubt her mind already on some other beauty she would
drive mad with desire. In all honesty,
Gabrielle was relieved to see her go. She
couldnt imagine herself wanting to make love with Aphrodite, yet that was exactly
what happened. It was best they spent as
little time as possible together before Gabrielle did something she would never forgive
herself for.
Gabrielle went to find Xena,
wondering how much of the truth she now knew. As
she walked out of the garden to look for her, Gabrielle felt a myriad of emotions pulling
at her heart. She felt responsible for this
worlds Xena, so she was disappointed that she would have to leave Xena. Yet Aphrodite had been quite clear. She had limited time in this universe before she
was trapped here forever.
Ill make the most of
it, Gabrielle said. She left the
garden, never knowing she was leaving under Athenas hateful stare.
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Are you ready to go home?
Xena sat looking down the hill at the
town shed grown up in. Amphipolis
was thriving again now that it was no longer under the demonic influence of Mephistopheles
and the forces of hell. The only problem was
coming home reminded her of one more hurt: Her
beloved mother would not be there to greet her as she came through the newly erected gate
the citizens had put up since the last time shed been here with Eve
and
Gabrielle.
Whats the matter? Varia asked.
She doubted Xena would answer this question any more than shed answered the
first. The Warrior Princess had hardly spoken
a word to Varia since theyd left their camp over Apollos temple where
shed planned to raid and kill everyone unfortunate enough to be in the wrong place
at the wrong time. Xena had sworn war but
Varia had managed to turn her toward home instead of the battlefield. The only question was how long would Xena be
content to let the men whod robbed her of her joy go free?
Nothing, Xena said. When it came to telling of her feelings,
Xenas answer was always either nothing or Im fine. Varia knew nothing could be further from the
truth and Xena was a long way from fine, but she didnt push the issue. Yet.
Xena turned away from Amphipolis and
stroked her horses neck gently. Argo
nuzzled her mistress lovingly and Xena responded. The
horse had taken to loving Xena just as much as her predecessor had, but Xena still missed
her old Argo at times.
As Xena stroked her steeds neck
she wondered how long it would take Varia to say something about how she felt or ask again
if she were ready to go. Over the past month
since Gabrielles death the Amazon Queen had yet to return to her people and she
wondered how long she would have Varia to keep her head above the deep waters of her pain.
Also with each day that passed Xena
saw the softer side of the younger woman. Before
Gabrielles death, Xena wouldnt have believed Varia had such a large capacity
for love and mercy. She was
pleasantly
surprised by this revelation.
Xena had also noticed that Varia and
Gabrielle more alike than anyone would have guessed.
Xena had noticed it was the simple pleasures of life that really made Varia happy. Things such as sunsets and the natural beauty
around her seemed to set Varia at peace. Even
days of rain that preceded winter this far north relaxed the Amazon warrior where it drove
Xena mad with cabin fever.
Winter is coming Varia. I think
we should return further south where it will be warmer.
I hate snow.
I disagree.
You disagree that I hate
snow? Xena asked, knowing full well that was not what Varia had meant.
Varia came around to face Xena, a
smile pulling at the corners of her full, rosy lips.
Now why am I noticing something like that? Xena asked herself. She casually looked away, wondering if Varia had
seen the moment of weakness in Xena. Chances
are, she had.
No, I mean I disagree to
returning south.
I figured you would, Xena
said. Had Varia not been in her way Xena
would have mounted up and rode out of there like a bat out of hell. Theres nothing here for me anymore. Why cant you see that?
Thats crazy Xena. This is your home.
Yes, and everyone Ive
ever loved that made it home is gone. It
doesnt feel like home anymore.
It can. Xena, all I ask is that you give it
time.
Xena shot her a cold look that showed
Varia just how deeply she was still mired in her anger over Gabrielles death despite
Varias best efforts. I
dont give a damn what you want.
The words cut deep into Varias
heart and Xena immediately regretted it. After
all shed done to help her, Xena still didnt hesitate to say things she knew
would hurt her. Im fighting a losing
battle, Varia thought. Yet her stubborn
nature wouldnt allow her to quit. Not
yet.
Im sorry Varia. I didnt mean that. And Xena now realized she hadnt meant it. She was coming to feel things for Varia with each
day that passed that she didnt want to allow in her heart, yet she was helpless to
stop it. Im betraying Gabrielle if I
allow myself to love her, Xena thought, looking everywhere but at Varia.
I think you did.
Varia turned her gaze down to the
newly walled village of Amphipolis with a fresh smile decorating her flawlessly beautiful
face. Then lets go. Home is where the heart is right? Besides, every town needs a good Inn.
********************
Before leaving the last time Xena,
Gabrielle and Eve had managed to leave Cyrenes tavern in pristine condition. The villagers had helped a lot of course, but Xena
had asked it remained closed. She
didnt like the idea of someone other than family running the place. Now she was back and the smell that greeted her
when she opened the door almost made her weep fresh tears.
The familiar smell of the breads and
cakes her mother used to make for her guests stubbornly clung to the air in this place,
mingled with the scent of the ale her mother made from her fathers recipe. Perhaps it was all in her mind, but just beneath
it all Xena swore she could smell the lingering scent of jasmine soaps Cyrene used to
clean with. It had been her favorite as well
as Xenas, and smelling it almost made her believe her mother was going to come from
the kitchen, wiping flour from her hands with a loving smile of welcome gracing her aging
but beautiful face.
Shes not here.
What? Varia asked, unsure
if shed heard Xena correctly.
Xena had spoken the words barely
above a whisper. So quietly in fact, they had
parted from her lips on nothing more than a breath. Mother,
Xena explained. Shes not here. Shes gone forever.
Thats where youre
wrong Xena. Varia entered the Inn and
looked around with an appreciative nod of the quality of structure. There was a presence here that exuded love, and
though Varia had never met Xenas mother, she didnt doubt in the least that
presence was the very same woman they were talking about.
I feel something here. Something warm and loving. Ill bet its her.
Xena ventured inside, letting the
heavy door swing shut behind her. Despite
herself she had to agree with Varia. She
could feel her mother too. You know I
think you might be right. I feel it
too.
The words her mother had spoken to
her about always being alive in her heart came back to Xena as she looked around the
familiar walls of the Inn. Shed been
feeling homesick for a long time. Now she
was back and she could feel some of the burden of her despair being lifted from her
shoulders with each breath of home she took in. Varia
had indeed been correct when shed said that home is where the heart is, and her
heart would always be in Amphipolis.
Give me tour?
Xena looked down at Varias
smiling face. She could see the triumph Varia
was feeling shining from her eyes. Xena gave
Varia the first real smile in a long time. Right
this way.
********************
Later that night Xena and Varia had
aired the Inn out and the smell of baking bread, meat and steaming vegetables that was to
be their first dinner filled the air. The
rain Xena had been forced to endure off and on for the past month poured outside once
again, but this time she found the sound soothing instead of bothersome. Her mother, Xena recalled, used to love the rains
that hailed the arrival of winter. A smile
came to her face as she remembered tender moments between her and her mother here in this
very same kitchen.
What a beautiful smile.
Xena looked over to see Varia
watching her as she set the small table the family and occasional seasonal employee had
always used to eat meals and relax. She
didnt attempt to hide her newfound smile. It
felt good to allow herself a small measure of happiness after a month of hard grieving.
Varia had noticed Xena allowed the
smile to linger as well, and she wanted so much for Xena to share the thought that had
inspired it. When Xena began to explain her
thoughts, Varia felt her soul smile as brightly as the smile on Xenas face. Xena was beginning to accept her.
I was just thinking about how
Mother loved the rain. After we finished
cleaning in here, she would stand by this window and look out at the town.
Xena did so now and Varia came to
stand beside her. The windows of the other
homes of Amphipolis glowed with warm yellow light as families settled down for the evening
after a hard day of working their shops and markets.
Xena pointed one out to Varia.
See that one, three doors
down?
Varia nodded. It was a small, solid structure with only one tiny
window. Uh-huh.
When I was twelve a boy lived
there that I was absolutely crazy about. His
father was absolutely crazy about my mother.
Really? Varia said, becoming genuinely interested in a
story Xena had never told Gabrielle. Xena
felt pangs of guilt for sharing something with someone new but she forced herself to bury
those feelings. It had been only a month, but
if she didnt begin to move on at some time she would become trapped in her hurt
until she was once again the bitter wretch shed once been. Maybe Varia
Varia looked up at Xena expectantly. She was so young!
She had an innocence Xena knew wasnt really there, but that didnt
matter. Varia was beautiful and she genuinely
cared about Xenas soul.
With no small measure of effort she
pulled her eyes away from Varias and looked back at the house. Anyway, the boy was named Maphias, and his
father was named Rufus.
Varia burst into laughter and quickly
held a hand up to her mouth, covering her perfect smile.
Im sorry. Rufus?
Yeah, Xena said, smiling
again for the second time that day, despite herself.
Whats so funny?
Varia shook one strong shoulder that
was draped in creamy, smooth skin. Xena
imagined it was every bit as soft to the touch as it was to the eyes, then she chided
herself for the thought. She would not allow
herself to fall for Varia. They could be
friends, but nothing more. Gabrielle was the
only one for her, and there would never be another.
Varia explained her laughter. Nothing really. That name
it just sounds like something a dog
would say if you could teach it to talk.
This day was filling with momentous
events. Shed smiled twice today, but
now she was actually chuckling. Whod
have ever thought shed find a reason to laugh without Gabrielle to inspire it?
Afraid she would do something to ruin
the moment, Varia only looked back at the house. What
happened?
It was a disaster, Xena
said, walking away from the window and going over to the oven to take the bread out to
cool. Rufus liked my mother but she
didnt like him. I liked Maphias but
Maphias liked my mother too.
No way!
Oh yeah. They ended up in a little war to court her.
They both giggled like schoolgirls. What did your mother do? Varia asked.
She could just imagine a twelve-year-old boy competing with his father over the
affections of an older woman.
She let Rufus know she was
happy being single and nothing was going to change that.
My thirteenth birthday was coming up so they planned this party.
Xena put the bread on the bakers rack
and sat down at the table across from Varia. Xena
had long since pulled her boots off and had donned one of the many dresses in storage in
her old room. Varia still wore her usual
Amazon dress but she appreciated the sight of Xenas long, bare legs as she put them
up on the table. The Warrior Princess lost
herself in memories of her past, not noticing the effect she was having on Varia, and
continued the story.
I was such a tomboy. Big surprise there huh? Maphias didnt care much for that but I
didnt have the first clue of how to be a proper girl.
What did you do?
I didnt do
anything, Xena explained. She closed
her eyes and remembered the events almost as if they were yesterday. Mother Rufus did it all. They fixed up this place like they were preparing
a banquet for a King and mother made this beautiful white Roman toga for me. She brushed my hair and adorned me with daisies. When I came down the steps I remember how
Maphias mouth dropped open.
I can see that Varia thought, hoping
against hope Xenas skirts would slid up her impossibly long legs just a little
further. Of course she didnt get her
wish but she was happy to see Xenas spirits lifting for a change even if her skirt
wouldnt. Xena was an exquisite creature
when she was happy.
What happened after that?
It lasted a whole week. Ah, we were kids.
I was his girl, you know how it is.
Uh, no I dont. Ive never been with a man.
Xena looked at her with something
that almost looked like pity, especially the way shed said man like it was a dirty
word. You dont know what
youre missing Varia.
Varia leaned forward with a wicked
grin and licked her lips. Actually, you
dont know what youre missing.
With that she stood from the table
and went to the grill. The meat was done, but
even fresh from the fire it wasnt as hot as Xena was getting at the sight of
Varias powerful, well-muscled body as she moved about with her chores of getting
their dinner on the table. Xena knew Varia
was aware of her stare and she didnt doubt the younger woman enjoyed the attention.
What was even more amazing was Xena
was enjoying giving it.