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<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>A few hours later the girls
apartment was wall to wall with people.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Tori
needed to get some air so she went outside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Spotting
the car they had rented, she sat on the hood gazing at the stars. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Whenever Tori
needed to think or was upset, she would always look to the sky and locate her favorite
star. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Mom
you said that if I
needed to talk to you, all I would have to do is close my eyes and you would wrap your
arms around me...Well I think I need you now mom.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>I
have always wanted to have what you and Daddy had. However, things just havent
worked out that way.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>I thought I found it.
But I never found the right time to express how I was feeling to that person.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>You see mom
Its Brett. I love Brett. I
always have and Im afraid I always will.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>I
cant remember a time when I didnt love her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Tori took a moment to compose herself
not wanting to cry in case someone should happen by.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>A
long time ago, I made the decision to push her away. I didnt want to risk hurting
her by showing her that I was in love with her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She
was so young and innocent at the time and I didnt think she could understand.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Today I found out, shes involved with a
woman. I keep asking myself, What was it all for?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>I
feel so lost right now, Mom. What am I going do? How am I gonna
live the rest of my life without
<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Just then, she heard someone
approaching her.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>When she turned around,
she saw Brett making her way towards her. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Hey I thought I saw you come out
here. Is everything alright? <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Tori
nodded, Uh, yeah. Just needed some air.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Tori could
smell Bretts perfume from where she was sitting and it was taking all her will power
not to throw herself head long at Bretts feet. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Brett had seen Tori leave the party and hoped that she could finally have some time
alone with her.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She missed Tori so much and wanted to talk to her.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She
knew that Jenna would have a fit if she found out she was out here with her.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>But she didnt care. She hadnt
seen Tori in so long and wanted to find out how she was.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Maybe get some answers as to why they had not kept
in touch. Though she never would, she desperately wanted to tell Tori
how she truly felt about her.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Its not that she
didnt care for Jenna.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Jenna had come into her
life at a time when she desperately wanted to feel needed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Brett
had never fully recovered from the loss of Tori.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Although her relationship was far from perfect,
she had tried her best to make it work.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Brett had tried to date boys as her
mother said when she got to a certain age. Though it was a pleasant experience, it just
wasnt what Brett wanted.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Every time she kissed a
boy<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Toris face would appear in her head.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>She would remember the tenderness and the safety
that she felt with
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>When Brett found out that Toriwas going to
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Her friends Alexi
and Adrian had announced that they were involved with each other when they were in high
school.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Much to their parents horror, they silently
hoped that it was just a phase and would eventually die out. However, what they felt for
each other was undeniable. They had been close, like Brett and Tori,
since they were children and one day nature just took its course.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Brett had always known Alexi and Adrian growing up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>They
were all the same age.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>But they hadnt
really become close until high school. They found out that Brett was curious about their
lifestyle and helped to explain things to Brett when she showed an interest. When the time
came, they all agreed that they would attend college together finding a school that taught
everything that each had wanted to major in.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Brett had gone to clubs withAlexi and
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>It was just recently that Brett and
Jenna agreed to move in together.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Brett had started to see
a change in Jenna the moment she moved in. Jennas possessive streak was starting
to bcome more prominent. Every time Jenna saw Brett
talking with someone, she always seemed to get jealous.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>No matter how much Brett tried to
reassure her that Jenna was the only one,<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"> i</span>t never seemed to appease the insecure
woman. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Jenna Carlisle had a rough childhood
and had never received the kind of love from her parents that she needed.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>She was passed on from family member to the next,
while her parents traipsed all over the world. Over time, Jenna became very bitter and
very rebellious, hanging out with a bad crowd.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Fortunately
for Jenna, she was very intelligent but not so good for the people around her. Contrary to
what people would think, her grades were excellent. She was accepted to all of the big
schools. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>At age fifteen, she learned that the
best way to get what you want from people was to find the persons weakness and
exploit it. Her parents weakness was their name and the luxuries that it afforded
them.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Therefore, she set out to humiliate them in
public. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>More than once, her parents received a
call to school for a conference.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Every time her parents went away she
had outrageous parties, where no expense was spared and made sure illegal substances were
everywhere to be found.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She would even make the
telephone call to the police herself. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Countless incidents escalated one
after the other.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Until her eighteenth
birthday, she received a large check for her college tuition and a note.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>The note stated that every semester, she would
receive from her parents: college tuition, room and board, and an allowance.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>In exchange she was never to step out of line, do
anything to embarrass them, or step foot onto their property.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>If
any of these occurred, they would immediately cut her off without a second thought.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>She was well on her way to destruction
when she met Brett. Brett being a compassionate soul tried to see past all of that.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>She took on the roll of pampering and nurturing
Jenna, taking the time to try and understand her. She knew what it was like to be left out
in the cold.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Brett would not do that
to Jenna.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She would be the one
that made a difference in Jennas life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She
would be someone that Jenna could count on.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Brett finally woke from her reverie and
looked up to see Tori looking at her.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>I havent had a chance to
wish you Happy Birthday, Brett.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Tori
brushed her hand across Bretts check.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>With
that simple gesture, Brett threw herself into Toris arms breathing in the warmth
that
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Brett barely heard the next words Tori spoke. You
are
arent you? Feeling Toris breath against her ear, it took
a second to understand what Toriwas
asking her.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Finally, it registered.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Brett looked up and with a look of resignation and
a deep level of regret she answered, Yes. Tori
Yes, I am happy.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Though she wanted to,
Brett could not stay there any longer without revealing everything that lay in her heart.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>She could not turn her back on Jenna. Not when she
tried so hard to bring Jenna to this point.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>However,
it didnt stop the fact that it would always be
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-size:16.0pt;mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt'>Knowing what she felt for Tori was best left in the past,<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>she gathered her
strength to allow Tori to walk out of her life
again. <o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Besides, Toridoesnt feel the way I feel for her. </span><span
style='font-family:Garamond'>Brett thought to herself.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>She still sees you as that little girl.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Not the woman you wish she would desire.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Brett quickly chastised herself. Stop this
Brett, youre with Jenna now.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Stop thinking about
something you will never have.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Dreaming about
something Tori will never feel for you.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>She reached up and brushed away the
locks of hair that fell upon Toris face. Looking into the deep blue eyes that she
would always love, she stretched up and gently kissed Tori
on the cheek. Softly she whispered, Take care of yourself, Tori.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>With one last
bone-crushing hug and a soft brush against Toris lips, she said in a whisper,
Goodbye, my love.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Brett turned around in a
blurred motion and ran back to the apartment never looking back.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>More than one tear fell that night and
the sound of two hearts breaking filled the air. Tori
walked alone for a very long time playing repeatedly in her head the look that she saw in
Bretts eyes. Is it possible that Brett feels the same way that I do?<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Tori asked. But now
youll never know will you?<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>You waited too long and
now she has found someone else.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>Bretts too good a
person to leave someone once shes made a commitment to.Tori
ran down the darkened street and didnt stop until she was breathless and her legs
begged for mercy.<span
style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>She couldnt get
far enough from the pain and anger that was building inside of her.<span style="mso-spacerun:
yes"></span>Angry at her stupidity and pain from the loss of love that she would never
have.<o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'><![if !supportEmptyParas]><![endif]><o:p></o:p></span>
<span
style='font-family:Garamond'>By the time the sun revealed itself
across the sky, coldness began to set over the frost-covered earth and a broken heart. A
new Victoria Hull was born that day, a
TO BE
CONTINUED. Installment
Five