Disclaimer: The characters of Xena and Gabrielle and others mentioned, belong to
MCA/Universal and Renaissance Pictures. No infringement on their rights is intended.
Subtext Disclaimer: Not this one, but there is a loving relationship implied, between two
consenting adult females. If this bothers you, or youre under age, or you live
somewhere where this type of material is illegal, go away.
Timeline: Plan D #20.
Shock Factor: 10, for Murphy who may go thud after reading the epilogue.
Note: This story was inspired by Don Henleys Taking you home. Its
for those people whove discovered that its easier to find your place in the
universe when theres somebody to show you the way home. All four major characters in
the Plan D series are covered in the story and theyre contemplating life and love,
as the time for Ts baby approaches.
Ann, thanks again.
Dont drink and drive. Always wear your seat belt, or helmet.
Send comments to asdease1@gte.net
Enjoy.
This Love
"Okay, I understand that youre just doing what you have to do and what comes
naturally, but this has really got to stop." Frowning, T poked her big belly and
glared into the mirror. "If I get any bigger, theyre going to paint Goodyear on
you and tie a rope around my ankle to keep me from floating away." Feeling a kick,
she shook her head. "Dont you get testy with me. Ive taken on a lot worse
than you and if you think youre going to boss me around, youve got another
think coming." Giving the occupant of her body another poke, she got another kick.
Growling low, the god glared menacingly into the mirror.
Hearing a low rumbling noise, somebody really small decided to take a nap.
"Wise decision." Lowering her shirt, T nodded. Smoothing out the large amount of
material, she turned to see Ares smirking from the doorway. "Dont you even
start with me." Waving a warning finger at him, she rolled her eyes and waddled over
to the bed. "Im not feeling threatened and this baby is not going to have me
wrapped around its little finger." Climbing laboriously into bed, she missed
the huge smile on his face.
"Never crossed my mind." He lied and walked over to the bed and gave her a hand
up. "Im sure that youll be in complete control and this baby will be a
perfect little angel."
Pulling the covers up over the prospective angel, T smiled. "Are you giving up your
claim to fathering this child? Because the chance of Junior here being remotely angelic is
pretty slim, considering the gene pool its swimming in." Chuckling, she saw the
frown on his face, which made her laugh even more. "Ares give it up. You and I both
know that were going to spend every ounce of our powers trying to keep this baby out
of trouble, so dont try to look surprised."
Rolling his eyes, the God of War began pulling off his clothes. "If you expect the
worst, youll get the worst." Grumbling, he tossed a shirt on a chair.
"Youre being unfair"
"Im being realistic." Folding her arms across her chest.
"Youre being pessimistic." A pair of jeans topped the shirt.
Rolling her eyes, she debated on whether to continue the argument. It wasnt the
first time theyd had this particular discussion and it was unlikely that it would be
the last. Choosing to save the remainder for another day, she sighed and shook her head.
"Whatever." Scooting down under the covers, T rolled onto her side, toward the
edge of the bed and closed her eyes.
Sighing, Ares rolled his eyes and put his hands on his hips. End of discussion, he
thought, with a mild amount of irritation. Not this one, T. He countered mentally and even
as it did so, his conscience was tugged at by the knowledge that her reasoning wasnt
completely unjustified. Although shed never mentioned his other children, the God of
War knew that they were the basis of her argument, which she had so discreetly disguised
as the gene pool.
The mixed bag of offspring hed produced was heavily laden with more than a fair
share of children that had followed in his footsteps. Most were like hed been.
Manipulative, egotistical, mean, self-serving and all the other negative attributes that
he still possessed, but chose to constrain. They werent a nice bunch, except a few
that had somehow bypassed his genetic influence and become middle of the road to actual
goody goodies and even those werent really any of his doing, because up until T had
become pregnant, his interest in his children had been minimal at best. His paternal
responsibilities had ended with the copulation, unless it served his purposes to stay in
the picture, which was rare and usually ended with him getting bored.
Sighing again, Ares watched Ts face as the lights dimmed, which signaled shed
gone to sleep. In the semi-darkness of the room, he stood silent for a long moment, just
watching her and thought about what hed done wrong in the past and what hed
die for before hed do again. Turning around, he went to the chair holding his
discarded clothes and picked up his jeans. Pulling them on over his boxers, he took
another look at the woman whod changed his life. Not this one. He thought again,
then slipped silently out of their bedroom to go downstairs and out again. Once on the
balcony, he went quietly down the steps into the throne room and took a moment to look at
the large chair. As he did, his eyes were drawn to the golden crown in the seat and he
thought about all the times hed wanted to end the life of the woman upstairs because
she possessed the power that lay behind that simple headpiece. "The Crown of the King
of the Ungara." He whispered and shook his head. Walking over to the thrown, he
picked up the object, staring at his face reflected in the polished surface. "Who
wouldve ever believed that a child of mine would ever wear this." He said
aloud, as his answer came back inside his mind. Nobody. Least of all me.
Looking deep into his own dark eyes, he turned away from the throne and continued to stare
until he saw stars added to the reflection. Glancing upward, the night sky met his vision,
with its twinkling lights and utter blackness. Searching the specks of light, he sat
down on the first step of the promenade and continued to stare, while his fingers
unconsciously rotated the crown in his hands. "When did I stop wanting you?" He
asked them and himself. "What happened to the Ares, God of War who wanted to be
the god in this world, with everything and everybody at his feet?" Moving his
eyes across the sky, he waited for an answer, but received only tiny dots of sparkling
light in response. Sighing, he leaned forward, placing his elbows on his knees and looked
down at the crown in his hands. "You." Speaking softly, he fingered the warm
metal. "Youre what happened to me, arent you?" Still getting nothing
but silence to his question, Ares felt the answer come from his heart and closed his eyes.
As Ts face passed through his mind, it brought a smile to his face. "Yea,
thats it." Chuckling softly, he thought back on his life, to when it had
changed. To when his wants and desires had become secondary in importance to fulfilling
his needs, which included giving up his plans for world domination, and following T around
like a love-sick puppy.
Opening his eyes, he considered the smiling face staring back at him. "Youre so
whipped." He said and gave the gold toned reflection a smirk. "And you love
it." Nodding in agreement, they both smiled and he continued to ponder his life and
what it had become. Lifting his gaze from himself, Ares looked around him. The trees were
only a shadowy outline in the moonlight and although he had his full powers, due to
Ts manipulation of the power base, he still felt the lingering sense of uneasiness
the forest gave him. Before T had died and before shed become a god, the forest had
been an enigma to him, with its protective shell from Ungara and the Ancients, that
drained him of his powers when he entered and that was a complete unknown before hed
met her. Just like T herself, the forest was beyond his omnipotence and it wasnt
until that day he went to see Xena, when she was dead in her mothers home, that
hed taken the time to learn of this enigma and all that went along with it.
The woman standing guard over his prized warlords body was a surprise to him, as he
popped in to say a smug good-bye, because he couldnt actually see her unless he was
physically looking at her, which was still true. And even then hed ignored her, his
mind focused on Xena and almost lost his hand before he woke up to her presence and
discovered the error. Hed gotten away with a gash to his palm, but that was more
than enough to get his undivided attention and to cause him much duress at the very idea
of a mortal doing him harm. Thus, once hed gotten over the pure amazement of the
idea and bandaged his hand, his ego had kicked in and driven him to making his second
mistake, which was showing up at the shes alive party. Then he
discovered another annoying attribute to the mysterious woman and was again amazed when he
found himself standing in the corner of the tavern being glared at with golden cat eyes.
This time he didnt make the mistake of thinking it was a lucky stare and could feel
the intensity of her eyes, which made his skin crawl, and he knew she could see him. The
tingling across his skin overrode his more aggressive nature and Ares had left, to watch
from the outside, but then found himself face to face with those eyes, when T snuck up on
him and pinned him against a tree by the throat. Then and only then did he begin to
comprehend the danger she posed, when her claws dug into his neck, spilling even more of
his blood and he realized that it wasnt just the sword that was the problem, but the
whole package. That was the moment he decided that this woman, who was spewing words of
warning and cutting off his air supply had to be eliminated and so he left, or was allowed
to leave to begin his research and making plans for her demise.
In the following months, he kept a watchful eye on Xena and Gabrielle and traced T to the
forest. During that time, he was also trying to learn everything he could about the new
enemy, studying her closely in an effort to determine her strengths and weaknesses, to use
against her. Normally this could be achieved from the Halls of War, using his powers to
keep track of her movements, but unfortunately that damned blind spot kept getting in his
way and he was forced to do his own leg work by following them around. Keeping a safe
distance, if that was possible, hed spy on her when she was with the warrior and
bard and even got very close to traipsing into the forest in his pursuit of knowledge, but
stopped when he felt his powers dwindling with each step he took. So, Ares stuck to the
world outside the forest to learn what he wanted and even had her given to him on a silver
platter, when her friends had tied her to a tree to keep every male in a fifty mile radius
safe from her amorous clutches.
And though he might have preferred a fair fight, the God of War was never one to look a
gift horse in the mouth, so he knocked Gabrielle unconscious, then strutted toward his
intended victim with a smile on his face and a misguided sense of comfort. The last part
became evident when, during his soliloquy of just how he was going to end her life in a
slow and painful way, T broke her bonds and pounced on him. Of course, his initial
reaction was to scream in fear, but he never got the chance and suddenly found his fearful
cry smothered by smoldering lips. Now, in any other situation, he wouldve been happy
with the turn of events and to be honest, he did actually resist for a whole minute and
then he gave up his idea of killing the woman, at least for the moment and went with the
groove.
This chink in his resolve was only the beginning of his fall and though he spent the
following hours in pure carnal satisfaction, he didnt realize then that his destiny
had been set, nor did he realize it when the sun went down and she changed from an
insatiable tigress in heat to merely a woman. In those long seconds, as the sun fell below
the horizon, he suffered from indecision and was caught between his mind, which was voting
for leaving before those claws tore him to pieces and therefore was a vote for
self-preservation and something deeper that called out for him to stay. During that
moment, as she turned away from him to move to the edge of the pool and watch the orange
glow outside the cave entrance, that his body he got the first hint of what life without
her near felt like and sent a clear message to his soul. Though the chill against his
body, left in her wake, may have come from the icy water they were in, it didnt
account for the sudden hollow feeling in his soul and it didnt account for his total
disregard for personal safety, when he swam to join her. What moved him that day was
something that took him years to admit to and he fought tooth and nail to deny, even
though his heart and soul were continually waging war on his mind and forcing him to make
choices that would normally have been a given.
Those first few years after that day were spent in an internal battle for supremacy of his
will, which his ego was holding onto with a death grip. Because of this, he refused to
admit that he felt anything but a passing affection for T. Though they were known to spend
days on end in each others arms, he continued to play the part of God of War by pursuing
his desire for wreaking havoc and world domination and in the process, continued to be
fought by the trio of women that found his wants less than appealing. With each failure,
his ego got singed and it grew more and more thirsty for the praise it fed on, which led
to the ultimate betrayal of his heart, when he chose to side with Dahok and Hope. That
decision, though fortified by his mind as the right one, proved to be his hearts
destruction, because in making it, he broke the first rule, which was not to interrupt a
good nap, but to cause the death of Gabrielle. This, he discovered later, was an
unforgivable sin, despite the fact that the bard had acted on her own and he was alienated
from Ts life completely for his participation in Dahoks attempt to reclaim the
world.
Even after Gabrielle was found alive and both Hope and the Destroyer were dead, his exile
from her life was total. He no longer enjoyed the occasional assignation and his heart
began gaining ground in its struggle with his ego, because the God of War, with all
his bluster and bravado was discovering the difference between wants and needs. He wanted
to rule the world. He wanted to be in control. He didnt want a woman with the power
to destroy him. He didnt want to become wrapped around her little finger and he
didnt want to change his warring ways. But he did and in the years leading up to
Ts death, Ares found his wants falling by the wayside and his unconscious need
making itself known. Although his ego still played a part in the decision making process,
the God of War was slowly changing, as the world became less important than having her
forgiveness and he even went so far as taking, what he thought were the dead bodies of
Xena and Gabrielle to the ice cave for safe keeping. This was done as fulfillment of a
promise made in the heat of passion, which was to protect the pair, should anything happen
to T and in the following 25 circles of the sun, his need to keep that promise was tested
by the King herself. But he withstood her anger and irritation and eventually survived the
fallout of his mistake, when the couple popped up one day to turn his world upside down.
Yet, through all this, he never gave up trying to fill his need, though he was met with
mere mild indifference on the part of T, but try he did and in the end, fell short of his
goal, when his efforts and his whole world came crumbling down around him, as Xena laid
Ts lifeless body on the ground after their battle in Dahoks lair.
Just as his affiliation with the evil Ancient had been the turning point in his life, so
too was the final confrontation, with even more devastating results and Ares was left
without the woman he needed and a hole in his existence that finally made him realize the
thing that had kept him in the pool that day was love. The conqueror of all had laid claim
to his heart and in that moment, when his fingertips met the chill of death on her skin,
that the mythical God of War ceased to exist. In that instant his change became complete
and even though he would one day regain the love he lost, his ego never again overrode his
heart.
This was proven when he became aware that his powers had become secondary to hers and he
was entombed for two thousand years. Although he wasnt happy with the accommodations
and he fumed for the first thousand years, his heart was true and he used is omnipotence
to keep tabs on the world as it passed him by. So, by the time Mel, Janice and Nick showed
up and released him from the sarcophagus, Ares was more than ready to leave; however his
desires bit the dust again and he spent the next six months doing manual labor, and
digging his way out. Then, just when the light of day crossed his face for the first time
in two milleniums, it was blocked from view by the woman who held his heart in her hand.
Feeling his heart skip a beat at seeing her, he also trembled with trepidation at being
sent back to his tomb, but this was put aside, when she pulled him out of the rubble and
their hearts, souls and bodies shook the ground with the reunion.
Seeing a smile in his reflection, Ares tossed the crown a couple of times, while he let
the memory of that day play out in his mind. As it did, he was reminded of the woman
upstairs and everything theyd been through, along with the challenge they were faced
with now. These thoughts brought him back to reality, sobering his smile into a reflection
of a worried father with knowledge that his past may come to haunt him with the birth of
his child. Sighing, he held the crown up, studying the god in the gold, then moved his
eyes higher to the stars overhead. "I know that a good father wants his baby to be
born healthy and happy and thats what I want, but I also want this baby to be good.
T deserves that, even though I dont and its not fair to punish her for loving
me." Lowering his gaze, he looked at the crown again. "I know that its a
lot to ask and that either way, Ill love this baby with all my heart and even if it
turns out to be like my other children, I wont run. Love changed me for the better
and it can do the same for my baby." Standing, his eyes remained on the crown, as he
walked back into the throne room and returned the gold circlet to its place. Staring
a moment longer, he finally smiled. "No, I wont run. Not from this baby, not
from this love. Thats a promise." Giving the crown a final tap, he headed back
up to the mother of his child and the woman who ruled his heart, his soul, his world and
in whos arms hed found a home.
**********
T heard Ares leave and opened her eyes when the front door closed, but left the lights
dimmed in the room. Listening to his steps fade down the outer staircase, she also heard
his words echoing in her mind. Unfair and pessimistic were what was keeping her awake and
they reverberated loudly against the silence of the room. It wasnt the first time
shed heard them from him, but somehow this time they were having an unsettling
effect on her. Maybe it was a mood swing, or her hormones going off the deep end again,
but it really didnt matter and as she lay there, going over the different variations
of the discussion theyd had, in her mind, she felt a wave of guilt take hold.
"Sometimes Im such a complete ass." Sighing with the admission, she pulled
back the covers to look down at the point of contention, then gave her enlarged tummy a
rub. "Your mother is an ass." She said with conviction. "Ive got
everything anyone could ever want in this world, two best friends, not just one and a guy
that worships the ground I walk on and loves me and whos put up with my tantrums,
mood swings and complaints and what do I do? Do I say, thank you Ares? Nooooo, I tell him
youre probably going to be some heathen with an attitude, because hes your
father and jump up and down on his feelings like an insensitive bitch." Slapping her
forehead a couple of times, T sighed again. "Smooth, T. Real smooth."
Giving junior another rubdown, she closed her eyes. "Youre not a heathen and
even if you do have an attitude, Ill still love you." Her voice low, T felt
movement under her hand and smiled. "Yes, Im talking to you, you little sprout,
whos made me a prisoner in my own home and confined me to immobility." Opening
her eyes, she continued to rub her tummy. "This is all your fault and its you
who turned me into the wicked witch of the west, so dont look so innocent. Im
not normally an ass, just for future reference and even though I do have my moments of
being a tad testy and extremely over protective, I really am a nice person, or so
Ive been told anyway." Wincing, she tried to remember the last time someone
told her she was nice and then put the thought out of her head, when nothing came to mind.
"Anyway, I am and I intend to prove it, but dont take my niceness as a sign of
weakness, little one. Id hate to have to show you what your mother is capable of and
oh my god why dont I just shut up." Covering her eyes, T couldn't believe she
was threatening her unborn child and felt her control slipping through her fingers.
"I have lost my ever loving mind. Yep, see ya, have a nice trip. Catch ya on the next
go round." Waving a bind hand, she bid farewell to her marbles as she envisioned them
rolling across the floor. "This has got to stop." Keeping her eyes closed, she
took a deep breath and held it, until the anxiety passed, then let it out slowly and
lowered her hand. Feeling more movement from inside, she shook her head. "No, no, no.
This isnt your fault. Its mine. Im just having one of those testy
moments I mentioned. Im sorry, just go back to sleep." Giving junior several
soft pats, she reached up, taking hold of the headboard and scooted herself up to a
sitting position.
Sticking Ares pillow behind her back, T leaned against the headboard and took
several more deep breaths to clear her mind, before she opened her eyes. Sighing heavily,
she glanced around the room, then lowered the lights until it was completely black.
"Much better." Gaining some comfort from her beloved darkness, she felt a
semblance of control return and welcomed it with open arms.
Of all the things shed given up for the safety of the baby, there were two things
that she missed the most. The first was the ability to control her own life and the second
was going outside. Both of these played a major part in her testy moods and they also
fueled her ambivalent behavior, but knowing this didnt seem to help and she was
finding herself taking more and more of these little moments, in the dark to regain her
lost composure. Though a temporary fix, they did work and even as she sat, confined to her
bed for the night, she took solace in the darkness and imagined a soft breeze on her face.
"Thats better." Nodding, she closed her eyes, using her memory of the
outside world to ease the tension and relax. Smiling, she opened her eyes to look down at
her tummy and watched her nightshirt flutter with the kicks she was getting. "Yea,
you do that. Take a run for me and Ill sit here and watch ya." Chuckling, she
added a jiggle to the movements. "Some day, you and I will go for runs in the forest
and swims in the river and everything else I havent been able to do for the last
seven months." Leaning her head back, the god stared up at the ceiling. "Someday
I wont be trapped and someday I wont be fat, and someday Ill look back
on this time and laugh, but that wont be today and it wont be tomorrow, but it
will be someday." Giving herself a pep talk, T shook her head in resignation.
"How on this round world did my mother ever stand this?" She stood it, dummy,
because she loved you. Her mind answered. And dont be such a whiny wimp. Youve
got it a lot easier than she did and I think having to suffer a little immobility is a low
price to pay, compared to the sacrifices she made. "I know."
Closing her eyes, T let herself be reminded of what it had taken to get her into this
world and felt small under the self scrutiny. Both her parents had paid the ultimate price
to keep her safe, with her father being the first and who never even got the chance to see
what he was fighting for. Opening her eyes, she looked down at her hands and the claws she
possessed, which were the closest thing she had to knowing her father. He had had them,
just like every King before him and in his death, hed passed the soul of Ungara to
her, along with the claws and shed become the only King ever born with them. Holding
her hands up for a closer inspection, T raised the lights and turned her hands over
several times in wonder. "These hands." She said softly. "They can rip a
beating heart from a body in less time than it takes to blink and they can wield a sword
with the precision of a grand master, but for all their strength, skill and power, I still
dont know if they can hold a baby." Lowering the items in question, she let
them come to rest on top of her stomach and continued to stare at her second greatest
weapons. They had ripped hearts from bodies and they had brought death to many, and if
shed been asked that question before shed gotten pregnant, the answer would
have been a hearty yes, but now? Now, she wasnt so sure and as the time to find out
got closer, her trepidation grew by leaps and bounds.
That was the difference between her and Ares. Hed been a father before, even if he
didnt really take a personal interest in his children, he did have experience. T, on
the other hand, had only faint memories of her mother and shed never been taught
what a mother should be. Her mother had taught her the language of her people and their
history, as well as sword drills, speed drills, how to hunt, how to hide and what her
place was in this world. Rahjolie, her mother, had been more of an instructor than the
truest definition of a mother, but that wasnt her fault and she never had the chance
to coddle her daughter with bedtime stories and play time. T was the future King and was
being hunted because of that, so shed had to make the most of the time she was given
to prepare her only child for her future and her give her the skills needed to ensure her
survival. Things that T was grateful for and she never forgot the memory of how her mother
had sacrificed her life to Democles flames, so she, herself could continue to hone
those skills and one day return to the home she never had, to become the King she was born
to be.
Her Aunt Krestral had survived three years longer than her mother, but for all the love
she had in her heart for her niece, she too was not given the chance to see T grow up and
used her time wisely, as well. So, at the age of ten, T was left alone and became the sole
survivor of her clan, with no maternal influence to guide her and spent the remainder of
her childhood being hunted and using the skills shed been taught. The years that
followed posed no motherly influence either, unless you count the captain of the ship she
jumped on, but even as fatherly and loving as the old codger was, he didnt teach her
anything about being a mother either. As the only female on a ship full of men, she did
get a good lesson in the difference between the sexes, but nary a sailor tried to show her
what a mother was supposed to be. And to be honest, though T was far from being a virgin
when she met up with Xena and Gabrielle on the road that day, she never asked what
motherhood included and if the truth be known, never even considered the possibility that
the subject might come up for her and therefore didnt pursue any acquisition of
knowledge in the field.
So, here she sat, pregnant beyond belief and scared to death that shed be the worst
mother in the history of the world. This, however, was not something she shared with Ares,
Xena, or Gabrielle and her facade of confidence and calm exterior were beginning to show
the wear and tear of keeping her fear secret. The irrationality of the fear was obvious to
her, but it didnt go away. Everyday that passed brought it closer to swallowing her
soul and made her job of remaining stress free that much harder. And it added to the
already present stress of being virtually immobile, cooped up, unable to go outside and
loosing the ability to have a say in her life. Though shed never considered herself
a control freak, she was missing the day to day routine of running the empire and the
conference, which shed looked forward to, was delegated to the warrior and bard, for
the safety of the baby. Her vast reaching influence had been shrunken to the size of a pea
and with nothing to occupy her body, her mind was also left with little to do and gave her
way too much time to stoke the fire of her fear.
But through all this, she maintained her sanity, though only by a thread and held onto the
hope that she wouldnt fail the child within her. She may lack the experience of
motherhood, but she had been shown the most important thing of being a parent and that was
love. Her parents had loved her more than their own lives and it was the weapon she used
against her fear. Whether or not she made mistakes in the rearing process, she would make
sure that this baby knew it was loved. This baby would be loved and have a home, and would
grow to be whatever it wanted to be, because she knew and was the most experienced person
in the world in the knowledge that through love, anything is possible. It was what had
brought her back to the forest. It was what had made her accept the Crown. It was what
made her spill the blood of countless soldiers, in the protection of her friends. It was
what had made her face down Dahok. It was the spark that stayed in her soul and lit the
flame of life, to bring her back from the dead. It was the reason she expended so much
energy trying to keep the world from destruction. It was the reason she couldnt
allow Ares to stay dead at the hands of Drennan and it was the reason this baby came into
existence in the first place.
This baby was not a mistake, though it wasnt planned. Just like her love for Ares
wasnt a mistake, though it blew her out of the water when she fell head over heels
for the heel. Her love for Ares was as real as the foot pressing against her ribcage and
no matter if Xena and Gabrielle never understood it, or what she saw in him, she did see
something. She saw her love reflected back, every time he looked at her and the pitter
patter of little feet to come, was also a reflection of what her heart did when she
thought about him.
"So, even if you are the spitting image of dear old dad, youll always have my
love, just like he does and trust me," giving junior a soft pat, "if I can put
up with Ares, youll be a cake walk." Smiling to herself, T felt a piece of her
fear break off and float away. "We may not be the quintessential example of the
perfect parents, but well do our best and if we fail, it wont be because we
didnt try and it wont be because we didnt love you. We do. I do."
Talking down to her stomach, she felt something like a smile radiate from within her and
it made her smile more. "Thats right, pumpkin. Your mom loves you very much and
you are the only person in the world I would become a human veggie for, so you do your
part and hang on for a little while longer, then you can show me that smile for real and
Ill show you that this love is real." Nudging the tiny foot off her rib, T felt
a resistance and sighed. "Remind me to add footstool to my resume."
Rolling her eyes, she heard the front door open and lowered the lights. Scooting back
under the covers, she assumed her previous position and waited for Daddy to arrive.
Opening the door slowly, Ares stuck his head in and saw T in bed. Creeping inside, he
closed the door silently and pulled off his jeans, to put them on the chair. Then he tip
toed to the bed and crawled up, pulling the covers up to his shoulders, as he scooted over
to lay behind T. Wrapping one arm over her waist, he realized she wasnt asleep, by
her breathing and gave her a kiss on the shoulder. "Did I wake you?" Keeping his
voice just above a whisper, he saw a smile come his way.
"No. I was just thinking and lost track of time." Taking the hand on her tummy
in hers, T brought it up to her heart. "What were you doing?"
"Thinking." Lifting up on an elbow, he scanned her face in the darkness.
"What were you thinking about?"
"The baby." Matching his tone, she rolled back into his body. "Im
sorry, Ares. I didnt mean what I said earlier. I dont believe this baby will
be bad."
"It doesnt matter. Well love whatever we get." Giving her a wink, he
leaned down to capture full lips with his own and held the kiss for a long moment.
Hugging his hand tighter, T smiled. "What were you thinking about?"
"You, the baby, us." Settling in behind her, Ares snuggled close. "I was
talking to the Crown again."
Chuckling softly, she sighed. "That crown has seen more action with you, than it ever
did with me."
"Maybe, but it knows who it belongs to, just like me." Smiling, he gave her hand
a squeeze. "I love you."
Smiling, T tucked their hands under her chin and closed her eyes. "I love you too,
Ares." Giving her tummy a pat, she started drifting off. "I love you,
junior."
"I love you too." Closing his eyes, Ares smiled with the warmth radiating from
her body and snuggled closer, before he fell asleep.
Floating around, juniors eyes closed and a little smile creased an unborn face.
**********
Staring out the window of her classroom, Gabrielle watched the clouds make their way
across the blue sky and yawned. Covering her mouth, she glanced sideways to check the
bowed heads of her students. Thank the gods its Friday. She thought. Otherwise
Id never make it. Yawning again, this one brought tears to her eyes, so she wiped
them away with her finger, then wiped it on her jeans. Looking down at the dark patch in
the material created by the tiny wet spot, she hoped nobody was going to be having fits
now that she had almost given up wearing her dress suits. Its just too much trouble.
Which equated to shed overslept again and grabbed whatever she could find to make
sure she wasnt late. Chuckling softly, she straightened her legs, bringing her feet
into view and the large cuffs just above them. Sorry, Xena. I didnt do it on
purpose. Sending a mental apology to her wife for grabbing the wrong pair of jeans in her
haste and leaving the warrior princess with a pair that would probably only reach her
knees, if she was lucky. Shaking her head, she lowered her legs as another yawn came on
and she went back to staring out the window. Somehow the clouds were keeping the sandman
at bay and if she could only make it until this class was over, shed be home free.
Or, as home free as she got these days, which wasn't very free at all.
Her current state of tiredness was a result of working at the Hub until 3am, then trying
to get a couple hours sleep before she had to get ready for school. It had never worked
and even though Xena had suggested that she just stay up, Gabrielle had given the idea a
thumbs down every time, stating that a wink of sleep was worth a pound of gold in her
book. The other reason she had turned it down today was the fact that it was Friday and
they were both off for the entire weekend. Free from having to look after T. Free from
having to work at the Hub and free to catch up on the sleep theyd been missing for
the past seven months. Free to slip under the covers with no alarm clock set and free to
snuggle up to something that wasnt full of feathers. That brought a big smile to her
face, along with a contented sigh. "Oh, yea." Whispering very softly, she could
almost feel the warmth of Xenas body right now. I dont even care if I
dont eat this weekend, she thought, as long as I get my nice, warm, tan, beautiful,
blue-eyed pillow. As the thought of food got relegated to the back burner, Gabrielle
continued to imagine a nice long nap on Xenas shoulder and began to unconsciously
spin the silver band on her left ring finger. Lifting her eyes to the upper-most window,
she watched white silhouettes pass across their blue background and smiled softly when she
realized what she was doing, then lowered her eyes to her hand.
Holding her hand just below desk level, she spread her fingers and continued to smile as
the etched silver sent sparkles dancing into her eyes. Tilting her head, she heard
Xenas voice in her mind and felt her heart skip a beat as her memory played out a
scene that had taken place in so many different places and different times, that it
shouldve been like listening to a broken record. But it wasnt and instead of
being a prefunctional formality, their weddings had always gotten to her, whether they
were huge ceremonies, or simply the two of them alone. She always got the same butterflies
and she always cried. There was just something about hearing that poem and holding
Xenas hand that never failed to send tears streaming down her face. It didnt
matter how many different bodies theyd been in, or whether they were man and wife,
or man and man, or wife and wife, they had never failed to find the other half of their
souls and played out the scene again and again. Except for the last life time, she and
Xena had spent the time they had together like theyd done since the first time they
met. Side by side against what the world sent their way and loving every minute they had
together and loving each other.
The karmic circle, like the ring on her finger was never ending and it sent them through
countless variations of the same life where families passed away, friends faded into the
crowd of people theyd met and known. There had been children in some lives and
sometimes they werent always given the most beautiful, or hansome of bodies, but
like the circumstances they had to face, none of these factors counted for more than a
small side bar against the looming giant of their love. Though TPTB were not the kindest
of benefactors and usually pitted them against the worst the world had to offer, the giant
always prevailed. The giant was unstoppable and never took any prisoners. It rolled over
adversity like a bull dozer plowing through a mountain of feathers. Nothing could stand
against it and even when they sometimes failed to see it in the darkness of their lives,
the bull dozer would change to a lighthouse, with a shinning bright beacon to guide them
through the storms of life. Back to the only thing that mattered. Back home.
Home, Gabrielle thought and almost laughed out loud. What a novel concept. Just like their
first life, she and Xena had rarely had a home, in the conventional sense and spent many
of their lifetimes moving from place to place, or on the road. And, just like that first
life, they hadnt wanted for their roaming ways. Even if they lacked four walls and a
roof, they always found a place to call home, which usually included one bedroll and two
warm bodies. Like the giant, it was an unbeatable combination that had served them well
through the years and although Gabrielle was eternally grateful for the house they now
shared, with its ever inviting bed, two-story library shed always dreamed of,
the 200 gallon fish tank shed wanted, or the endless amount of mementos scattered on
every horizontal surface, it would still be nothing more than an empty shell, in her mind,
if she didnt have Xena to share it with.
Shed been the route of living alone and hated every minute of it, but until she
found Xena in each lifetime, thats what shed done. Of course, the opportunity
for sharing quarters with friends, or a sibling was usually available, but shed
always turned them down. So, instead of living with someone, her choice was to live in a
place that meant nothing to her. Some of them had been very nice and were even on the
opulent side, but she didnt see that. The only thing Gabrielle knew was that she
didnt have Xena there and therefore those houses and apartments, or just simple
rooms were empty space, waiting to be filled. Filled with the dominating presence of one
warrior princess no matter what she looked like and to fill the void in her heart.
Those were the most trying days of her lives. The long days and years of acting like a
normal person, while she searched every face she met for that familiar twinkle of the eyes
and crooked smile. It was infuriating sometimes, with the endless pretending and knowing
that the people around her would never understand what she was going through. She
couldnt tell them, or risk being locked up in a mental institution and with each
unsuccessful day that passed, it got a little more frustrating. The only thing that did
compensate for her loneliness and irritation was her writing. It gave her the only comfort
in those days and she kept journals of her daily activities, in Greek and would spend
hours on end writing her thoughts and hopes for finding Xena the very next day. Most days,
her hopes were left unfulfilled, like her heart, but eventually her perseverance would pay
off and then. Oh and then, she thought with a smile and looked down at her bare arm to see
goose bumps forming. Just like now, her skin would start to tingle before she ever spotted
the warrior and if Xena saw her first, she usually dodged the bard to sneak up from behind
and it was always in the most inconvenient of places for a reunion. But that didnt
matter and every person within shouting distance was treated to an earful of jubilant
cries and a flood of happy tears.
Even with the knowledge that they would find each other, Gabrielle always felt her heart
bursting inside her chest with the first glimpse of her warrior princess and Xenas
touch never failed to send shivers down her spine. Her reaction was more reliable than the
most precise time pieces and it was like a starting gun for her life. She marked her
existence in two halves. One half was filled with anticipation and loneliness, while the
other was filled with love and a sense of being whole again. No matter what her occupation
was, or how fulfilling her work, it never took the place of having Xena in her life. The
warrior princess filled every corner of her world and though Gabrielle considered herself
quite the independent type, she also knew that it was like Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer
and Hermie in the Christmas movie. Two people being independent together. Yes, it was a
contradiction in terms, she admitted, but that was the best description available and it
fit them like a glove. Two people, whos personalities were distinct and different,
with different view points and different backgrounds, but who considered themselves a
cognizant unit. And, as she also admitted, their distinct and different personalities
often fell into conflict like bull rams during mating season, but they lived with that.
They often agreed to disagree and only got into really big arguments over really small
things. Like the wallpaper in the bedroom, which was supposed to be a flower print for her
and a solid color for Xena and they had been thrown out of every wallpaper store for
beating each other with rolls of the stuff, but in the end, they had found a middle ground
in the stripe they now had.
Compromise was something they didnt do well, again because of their personalities,
but had gotten better at through the centuries. It had become like an artform, or science
that each took as a way to test their mental and strategic skills. When they stopped
having battles to fight and evil to get rid of, their minds were still engaged in warfare,
but with bloodless results, unless you count the time Gabrielle hit Xena over the head
with a particularly large scroll and had to put a couple of stitches in, but that was an
isolated case. Normally their battles were more, or less subtle and the bard enjoyed them
immensely because she was on level ground with the woman of many skills. Although that
woman was known to cheat, Xena never had it easy and had eaten crow on more than one
occasion. Gabrielles victories, though often tainted by the poutmiester and her
bottom lip from hell, which worked no matter what body she was in, were not as rare as one
might think. That little girl from Potedea was long gone and the woman that shed
grown into knew every angle Xena could throw at her and was more likely to lose from
losing focus than anything else. Thats how Xena cheated. Shed distract her
opponent by some physical, or verbal foreplay and the bard would know full well what was
happening, but just couldnt resist those damned seduction ploys. Again, the one time
she did resist was an isolated case and involved large amounts of glue, but thats a
rather sordid tale thats better left alone.
Ahem, be that as it may, they were suited both mentally and physically, and their
friendship survived, as well as their love. The friendship was the longest running one, in
the history of the world and was also the backbone for their love. If they had never been
lovers, Gabrielle knew, they wouldve always been friends. Best friends in the truest
sense, not the casual definition that was placed on what she qualified as acquaintances,
but the real thing. The kind you wear like a second skin, knowing what the other is
feeling and thinking without a word being spoken. Knowing when youre being lied to
for your own protection and knowing when to yank the leash and when to let it out. It was
an armor wrapped tightly around their love, holding it together and making it strong
enough to survive for over two thousand years. Friendship had been the original force that
brought them together and instead of drying up or getting stale, their friendship had
actually grown over time. Developing from a kinship, in the beginning, into an unshakable,
unbreakable force to be reckoned with. Which, for those who tried to destroy it, or drive
a wedge between them, was the equivalent of trying to level Everest with a plastic spoon.
Not only did those people fail in their attempt, they frequently didnt walk away of
their own volition and more often than not, didnt walk away at all.
Xena and Gabrielle were soul mates for a reason and although their love was a major player
in the cause of that, their friendship was the foundation for their love and without it,
that love would be as fragile as a snowflake; beautiful to look at and have, but temporary
and unreliable, without trust and without the strength to endure the all out bombardments
they had been faced with.
Even with that foundation and strength to back them up, their love had still been tested
beyond the bounds of conceivable limits and had survived. It wasnt the untouched
visage of what most imagined as true love, with the pure white essence radiating from
within, but had stains left behind by struggles with conscience, impossible battles of
faith and the shadows of betrayal. Yet, though their love had its scars, it was
still beautiful in its complexity, like looking at an intricate tapestry. Their
lives, love, friendship woven into a pattern so detailed that even the weavers stood in
awe of the creation. Strong, enduring, unbreakable, eternal, scarred, warm, comfortable,
passionate, powerful, worth living, fighting, killing and dying for. That was their love
and their friendship.
No matter what, Gabrielle thought, this love will survive. Then she looked up, as the bell
started to ring, sounding the end of class and the beginning of her weekend.
"Yesssssss." Smiling, she jumped up out of her chair and pointed at her desk.
"Tests go here and if youre smart, youll read the next two chapters by
Monday." Seeing the personification of glum, she sighed when the trail of sad bodies
started toward her. "Wait, wait, never mind." Waving her hand at suddenly
confused faces. "Just enjoy the weekend and well go over those chapters in
class." Rolling her eyes, when the cheer went up, she hustled them out of the room.
"Go, git outta here will ya. You think I live here or something. Ive got a
life, ya know and Id like to get to it. Chop. Chop." Clapping her hands
together, she saw thirty tests dropped on her desk in record time and had those tests in
her briefcase by the time the last teenage body left the room. Disregarding her normal
neatness, she shoved the papers in and began grabbing the basic essentials, before closing
the leather case and jogging out the door. "Thank you, Nike, Goddess of Victory and
remind me to pack these shoes everyday." Chuckling through the halls, she was out the
front door and to her truck with the speed of a woman in need of a nap and wanting nothing
more than to fall asleep in the love and warmth of Xenas arms. She was headed home.
"Move!"
**********
Rubbing her eyes, Xena dropped her hands and stared at the inside of her eyelids, then
popped them open when the door to her office moved and Jim walked in. "Is that
it?" Seeing the stack of folders in his hands.
"Yep, thats it." Smiling, he dropped them unceremoniously on her desk.
"Thats the last of the expense reports, the last of the budget reports and
its the last of the patient updates, which all have to be gone over before you get
your precious weekend." Risking life and limb, by the expression on her face, he
leaned on the desk and smiled bigger. "You know, Grace. Its such a pleasure
working for you, that I just dont know if Ill be able to go a whole two days
without seeing your happy face."
Snarling, the warrior glared her most menacing glare. "If you still want to be able
to see when you leave this office, I suggest you put any thoughts of calling me in, this
weekend, right out of that vacuum you call a brain, because if I even think youre
thinking about calling me, Ill hunt you down and break every bone in your body, then
turn you inside out, starting with your balls." Using her lightning reflexes, she
grabbed his smock and pulled the smug mug across the desk to be within a very close
proximity with hers. "Got me?"
"Actually, I think you could use a couple of days off and Ill be sure to see
that you get them, el capitan." Giving a bouncy salute, Jim continued to smile after
he was released.
Growling low, Xenas eyes narrowed and she actually considered putting him out of her
misery right then and there, but let her great, great, grand son live and merely pointed
to the door. "Be sure you do, el piss ant."
Flicking his eyebrows, he gave another salute, clicked his heels, then left while the
getting was good.
As the door closed, the warrior sighed and let her eyes fall on the stack of folders.
"Grrrrrrrr." Rolling her tired eyes, she knew she couldnt put them off,
because shed done that twice already and after getting a nasty gram from the CFO of
the hospital, had wrangled Jim in to help her get them done on time, this time. Of course,
her selection of helpers was driven by her knowledge that he was a wizard with numbers,
but it was tempered with the additional knowledge that he had a forked tongue and would
use it to its fullest annoying capabilities, which he had done. "Snot nosed
brat." Flipping open the top folder, she turned to the picture of Gabrielle on her
desk, and pointed at it with her pen. "Why couldnt you be more like her? I like
her." Asking the question to space Jim had just vacated. "And dont tell me
its my fault, because I refuse to believe that, although I carried your great,
great, grand father for nine months, that the next four generations of genes added to your
pool didnt have any influence on your smart mouth." Giving the empty space a
satisfied nod, she went back to her reports and heard a mental chuckle from the large
photo centered between the one of her parents and the one of her siblings. "And
dont you start with me." Keeping her eyes on the paper, she again used her pen
to point to where the voice was coming from. "I dont care what you say, he is
not a clone."
Flipping through the pages of the report, she checked the numbers and continued to hold
her two-sided, one person argument, filling in Gabrielles parts by heart. "I
was never that bratty. I was witty. Theres a difference." Smiling to herself,
Xena could almost see the bards eyes roll in consternation, which made her chuckle.
"Well, if your sperm had been worth their salt, Mr. James Elias Buchanan the first,
maybe he wouldn't be so snotty." Getting in a jab, she tossed her head sideways to
simulate being smacked in the head. Laughing hysterically, Xena had to put the pen down,
before she marked up the report. "Gods, Ive been sitting in this chair for so
long, Im getting punch drunk and Im talking to myself." Wiping the tears
out of her eyes, she gave them a good rub as well and sat back in the chair for a break.
Taking a deep breath, she puffed her cheeks to let it out slowly and glanced at the
picture of the woman, whos hand print was permanently embedded in her skull. "I
know, I know. Its my fault. I shouldve done them two weeks ago." Calming
down somewhat, she shook her head. "I could blame you, ya know. If you werent
so damned sexy, Id get a lot more work done." Pointing an accusatory finger at
the smile she loved so much. "Yes, you, miss thang and dont look at me like
that. Otherwise my ass is grass, because Ill drop this in a heartbeat and you know
it. It wouldnt be the first time you got me in trouble." Smirking at the photo,
she chuckled. "You and that smile will be the death of me someday. All cute and
inviting and Ive got to shut up before I end up with my butt in a sling."
Shaking her head, Xena closed her eyes, to get away from the smile. "Focus, Xena.
Just focus on these reports. Its not that hard. You can do it." Nodding with
each pep to her talk, she opened her eyes and stared at Gabrielle. "Oh, this is never
going to work." Sighing, she leaned forward and laid the picture face down on the
desk. "Sorry, honey. But you gotta do, what you gotta do." Giving it a soft pat,
she sighed again and went to work on the reports.
As she flipped through the pages, her eyes were safe from distraction, but her tired mind
wasnt so lucky. With each category signed off, her thoughts strayed further and
further from the task at hand, and more and more toward Gabrielle. Which was, of course
where Xena really wanted to be and would've gladly turned in her resignation to be next to
her soft warm body, if she thought she wouldnt get her ass chewed by the bard for
doing it. Wincing with the thought, she shook her head. "No, that would not be a good
thing. Been there, done that. Got the scars on my butt to prove it. No, no, no."
Waving her pen in resolution against the idea, she went back to work and succeeded in
getting the expense report completed before thoughts of Gabrielle completely took over her
concentration. Then she merely moved on to the budget report and let her subconscious
crunch numbers, while her hands switched to autopilot and her heart took her away from her
office. Away from the drudgery of her position, away from the aches and pains of sitting
in one spot for ten hours and to the one person that made the world disappear, with all
its wear and tear.
Smiling, as one hand turned a page and the other began to move slowly toward her, Xena
imagined wrapping her arms around Gabrielles shoulders, pulling her close and
feeling those smiling lips pressing against hers. Sighing, she watched another page go by
and fought back the urge to close her eyes, so she could get a better image. "Gods, I
just wanna go home." Groaning at her inability to fulfill her desires, she propped
her head on one hand and stared blindly at the pages, as more tempting images filled her
with a desperate longing to be home and in the warm embrace of her bard. Feeling her
bottom lip start to edge outward, she sucked it back in with a disgusted frown. "No
pouting." Rolling her eyes, she focused her vision on the page and pressed onward.
"When did it get so hard to do this?" Asking the general nonexistent populace at
large, she got no response and didnt really require one, because she knew the
answer. It was when they moved into their house and her comfort level had gone through the
roof.
She didnt really like the paperwork aspect of her job, but in the beginning
shed plowed through it with an ease of a seasoned professional. Now, every time she
saw anything manila, she cringed. Each tidy folder represented a waste of time, in her
opinion and though she knew it was a necessary evil, it wasnt really the time away
from her patients that bothered her. It was times like this, when she was tired, that the
paperwork got to her and she wanted Gabrielle around, even if the bard was just sitting on
the couch, reading a book, her presence always made Xena feel better. She didnt have
to help. She didnt have to talk. All she had to do was be in the room and suddenly
the paperwork didnt bother her so much. And it wasnt just paperwork that got
easier with her there. It was everything. Mowing the lawn, doing laundry, fixing the
plumbing, working on her parents cars, everything got easier with Gabrielle close
by.
Letting out a long sigh, Xena leaned forward, picked up the bards picture to set it
back in place. Letting her eyes take in the smile and the sparkling green that defied the
two dimensional surface and filled the room, and made her smile too. "Okay, I guess I
can live with this for a little while longer, but not too much longer." Giving the
bard a wink, she shook her head at how even a picture could alter her mood. But that was
the power Gabrielle had. She didnt really need to be there and if push came to
shove, Xena might even be able to get the paperwork done with no external influence, but
she didnt want that. She wanted Gabrielle there and that was all there was too it.
Call it selfishness, co-dependency, weakness, lack of character, it didnt matter one
iota to her. All she knew was that having the bard around made her happy and if that was a
problem, then it was somebody elses problem, because unless that somebody was
extremely stupid, they would know that having a happy warrior was much better than having
an unhappy one.
Her dark side may have been conquered a long time ago, but her temper hadnt gone
anywhere. It had moved from body to body, along with her soul and like its dark
counterpart, her temper needed concentrated effort to be overcome. Left to her own
devices, Xena was moderately successful in holding her temper in check, but the master of
manipulation, the person who had the key to lock up her temper, was Gabrielle. No matter
how mad, furious, or intent on detaching someones head from their body she was, the
bard simply had to touch her arm, whisper her name, or give her a look and the monster
would crawl back in its cage. Of course, the monster was free to bitch and moan
about being locked up, but once Gabrielle yanked her chain, it was all over. Many lives
had been spared a slow and painful death from a good yank, and although Xena sometimes
didnt like the notion of someone having that much power over her, she knew
shed given the bard that power, when she gave her her heart.
Gabrielles love had helped her conquer her dark side and in the process, shed
conquered her heart as well. Holding it in the palm of her hand and wrapping the mighty
warrior princess around her little finger, but not without giving back as much as she was
given. Their love was mutual and Xena had done her share of chain yanking in her day, with
mixed results and enough bandages to cover the Empire State building. Unlike the warrior,
who had spent years learning to focus her emotions, Gabrielles monster only went
back in its cage with a whip and a chair. The bard was, to use an overused metaphor,
hell on wheels when she got going and stopping her took a lot of effort and skill on
Xenas part. The simple touch, that was very effective on Xena, got her hand slapped
when she tried to use it on Gabrielle. The simple word got her yelled at and the look got
her smacked up side the head, but eventually, Gabrielles rage would run its
course and Xenas job was to get her off the ground, so she wasnt able to
inflict any major damage on whoever pissed her off first and self preservation second. And
the green-eyed monster was ten times worse. That little bugger required a cattle prod to
get its attention and then you rode out the storm by burying your head from
pummeling and wishing youd remembered your shin guards. Gabrielle, for all her
intelligence and compassion, was beyond reasoning with when she was mad, but that was one
of her endearing qualities and one which could be used to an advantage, given the right
circumstances.
Nodding her head, with a grin on her face, Xena cocked her eyes over at the photo.
"Yea, youre my spitfire, all right. Rockem sockem Gabrielle, with
fists of steel and kicks of unimaginable fury." Chuckling to herself, she could
almost feel those kicks right now and they were aimed at her backside, telling her she
needed to stop daydreaming and get back to work, so she could go home. Home is where the
heart is, she thought and gave the picture another quick smile. Yea, home is where the
bard is. All warm and soft and funny. Smart and understanding and grumpy. Loving and
compassionate and sexy. Passionate and inspiring and irritating. Happy and sad and
everything all rolled up into a perfect package that loves me. Who never fails to make me
want to be with you all day, everyday. To listen as you speak, to feel as you feel and to
bring my heart joy with your smile. You are my inspiration and my light, my shining star
in a world of darkness. Youve conquered my heart, tamed my soul and given me the
best in every lifetime. Youre my best friend, confidant, partner and wife. Without
you, I am merely a wayward warrior in search of an imaginary foe, but in your arms
Im a champion. You give me strength, wisdom, love and encouragement. Your world is
my world, your heart is my heart and our souls are one. Your wish is my command and your
desires, my goal. I give you my heart and you give me peace, comfort, contentment and a
reason to breathe. Youre there when I need you and even when I dont know I
need you, to stand by my side, or just hold my hand. Your strength helps me stand against
the world and your love lifts me higher than I have ever been lifted before. You quench my
desires and caress my spirit. You are the most beautiful, strong, supportive, sensitive,
willful, loving, compassionate, caring and kind person I have ever met and to know that
you can find it in your heart to love me, makes me question your sanity.
Laughing out loud, Xena looked at what shed written and almost erased it, but left
the line alone and finished the letter. I love you, Gabrielle. Always and forever and
without judgment. My love is unconditional and it is yours. Thank you for loving this
warrior and thank you for allowing me to love you. It has brought me joy and happiness
that words cannot describe and if our circle ever comes to an end, I will gladly give up
my earthly existence to spend eternity in the heaven of your love. Xena.
Tearing the page out of the budget report shed been writing on, she folded it into a
square and stuffed it in her pocket. "Okay, Jim. I hope youve got your eggs in
a basket, because its show time." Going through the report, she signed her
initials in rapid succession and gave the patient updates more consideration, which took
up another hour, but she didnt mind so much. Closing up the last folder, she pulled
off her smock, pulled on her jacket, tucked the folders under her arms and grabbed her
helmet, then delivered her manila items to their appropriate destinations and put a sticky
note on the budget report about the printer eating a page and that shed have it
first thing Monday morning. With that done, she jogged through the halls to the stairwell,
taking the steps by leaps and bounds, then went through the helmet routine while jogging
through the lobby. Hitting the sidewalk, she picked up speed, heading toward the bombshell
and was out of the parking lot before the engine had time to know it was awake.
**********
Gabrielle pulled the truck into the garage and jumped out of the cab, yanking her helpless
briefcase behind her and slamming the door on it, then it got rescued and bounced off wall
and fender on its way to the kitchen counter. "Xena?" Shouting the
warriors name, the bard listened and shouted several more times, before her heart
began to sink. "Damn." Slapping the back of the couch, she was about to slump
dejectedly to the floor, when her ears picked up a distant rumble. "Thats my
girl." Feeling her face stretch into a smile, she went out the front door and moved
to the edge of the porch. Waiting as patiently as she could, she let the rumble get her
heart pumping and felt the goose bumps on her arms.
***
Pulling into the driveway, Xena gunned the engine, sending dust and dirt into the air.
Weaving down the path, she slowed down when she cleared the trees and smiled at the first
sign of Gabrielle on the porch. Going around the dirt circle in front of the house, she
pulled up next to the steps and took off her helmet, then shut off the engine. Dropping
the helmet on the seat, her eyes were trained on the bards and she walked slowly up
the steps, to wrap her arms around Gabrielles waist. Staying one step down, she was
eye to eye with the sparkling green. "Hey."
"Hey. Welcome home." Grinning from ear to ear, Gabrielle wrapped her goose bumpy
arms around Xenas neck and pulled her in for a long kiss. "Tired?"
Nodding, the warrior pulled the letter out of her pocket and presented it to bard.
"This is for you."
Lifting her eyebrows, one came back down and she took the offering, giving it a
speculative stare. "Is it a note from the principle?" Smiling at the item.
"Its a note from my heart." Whispering, Xena took the note back and put it
in Gabrielles back pocket, as she pulled her closer. "Itll wait."
Smiling, she held her wife tight and basked in the feeling of warmth and love shed
been needing all day. "I love you."
"I love you." Holding Xenas eyes, she saw a very happy soul through the
crystal sapphires and knew the warrior was seeing the same thing. "Food or
sleep?"
"As long as I get to be with you, I dont care." Stealing a kiss, she felt
the arms around her neck loosen their hold and smiled. Then she was led happily away,
through the house, up to their bedroom. As she got undressed, she gave her reflection a
wink and turned to find Gabrielle already in bed. Chuckling, she crawled under the covers
and assumed her natural position and waited as Gabrielle snuggled close. Feeling the
bards hand take its place under her chin, she pulled up the covers, then
wrapped one arm around a narrow waist and the other took hold of the hand under her chin.
Intertwining their fingers, she gave a blonde head a soft kiss then closed her eyes and
let out a long heartfelt sigh. This heart, this soul, this love. Yea, Im home.
**********
The End.
Epilogue: The Plan D series is going on hiatus. Dont worry, there isnt
anything wrong with me, Im just going to do somethings around the house that
Ive been putting off for a long time. Like tear down my old rotted carport and put
up a new one, strip the yard, then re-sod, replace the screens on the windows, reinsulate
the attic, stuff like that. Unfortunately, to accomplish these tasks in a timely manner,
being the do-it-myselfer that I am, I cant take my usual amount of time to write, so
Im having to put you all on hold for a couple of months. I expect, hope, to be
finished with my domestic activity by the end of September and thats when you should
start looking for new stories. In the meantime, I am hoping to squeeze in a little
rewriting and will get the chance to start updating the earlier stories in the series. So,
if you see one of those get posted, dont think Im back, but as soon as I get
my list of things to down to a reasonable size, I will be. Hate it when the real world
crashes my party.
Sorry to send you such news, but thats one of the things you get when you live in a
house. The maintenance never goes away, you just put it off until the roof falls in, then
you take action.
I will continue to answer any and all email, so feel free to keep in touch. I might need
my spirits lifted now and again, with what lays in store. Hopefully youll still be
here when I get back.
Thanks for reading and Ill see ya in September.
FlyBigD